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Every single time it has to be this way... no easy way to break it..... you contplate in your head but there is never the right conclusion that you comes to. maybe some other time or another day.. not right now. It may be time for you but not me... please respect this and dont condem me for something that i feel strongly about.... you are suppose to be supportive in EVERYTHING that i do.... but it seems that you are not.. but that is not the reason. i have to find myself before i concern anyone else.... do you understand? if you did you would still be there, but there is an empty seat next to me on the bus to no where... when i see those words i do think of you... they hurt me because i hurt you... is that what you wanted? well if it is i hope that you are happy.... happy to spite me i guess... you havent even told me how you feel.... well you did but never updated. im sorry that you had to find me and i was not what you were looking for.... i can be here for you but not in that way rite now. Like i said, if you wait good things will come.. maybe me or maybe someone else... i dont know.. i dont know anything at this point. it was never you.. it has always been me... but you could help me if you wanted... but no phones are ringing... maybe i have secluded myself from the world too long that they canceled my cell phone plan..... but i could call you... but i dont want to make the wounds deeper when i dont know if you want to talk to me. So give me a call when you are ready.. i dont blame you if you dont..... like i said.. i am TRUELY sorry that i just figured this out.......