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well, i havent posted in a while.... sorry to keep you waiting on the 'Epic Adventures of Sarah Boudreaux' lol anyway.. the last few days have been pretty busy, but i couldnt tell you what i've done to occupy my time.. sad isn't it? I'm so busy with nothing.... I started on my art piece .... everyone seems to be freaked out by it.. but when i explain to them what it's about they like it, is this b/c my piece is too confusung... or are ppl just naive? haha my grades are better.... i still hate cheerleading.... friday was fun, the volleyball game was awesome.
Saturday: Woke up at the crack of dawn (5:45), Went downtown for 'Race for the Cure' (5K charity run for breast cancer research). Didn't stop once (well to tie my shoes)! got home wemt to sleep again. It was so sad to me.... TO see fathers with their children wearing little signs saying 'in memory of...' and knowing that their mothers had died, It made want to cry right in front of those 30,000 ppl.
after all that i hung out with andrew...... i wasnt in a good mood, I kind of felt bad that i was in that type of mood w/ him near me..... i was kind of distant. i dont know why.... Then he asked me if i was happy and it made me realize that i was just kidding myself... im not happy w/ myself, I was never happy. The thing that would probably make me happy is to express myself in the way and with the skill that i want to... im just so unhappy w/ my life.. i've been in this hole forever.. and i'm starting to think that it has no outlet.... there are moments of happiness but never happiness all the time... im confused at this moment in time
Saturday: Woke up at the crack of dawn (5:45), Went downtown for 'Race for the Cure' (5K charity run for breast cancer research). Didn't stop once (well to tie my shoes)! got home wemt to sleep again. It was so sad to me.... TO see fathers with their children wearing little signs saying 'in memory of...' and knowing that their mothers had died, It made want to cry right in front of those 30,000 ppl.
after all that i hung out with andrew...... i wasnt in a good mood, I kind of felt bad that i was in that type of mood w/ him near me..... i was kind of distant. i dont know why.... Then he asked me if i was happy and it made me realize that i was just kidding myself... im not happy w/ myself, I was never happy. The thing that would probably make me happy is to express myself in the way and with the skill that i want to... im just so unhappy w/ my life.. i've been in this hole forever.. and i'm starting to think that it has no outlet.... there are moments of happiness but never happiness all the time... im confused at this moment in time