Something on my Mind
I feel for someone... I know in my heart I did..
Its been impossible for me to get this person
out of my head. Its so bad.. Almost the only
thing I think about every passing moment..
I want to tell everyone..how I actually see
everything from my point of view..but always
I hold back.. so far.. only Mylene got the
chance to see a glimpse of my real self.
I dont know if she was lucky enough to be
at the right moment.. or was unlucky to
hear a past story of mine.. but she
listened.. im glad she did.. though
My respect for Mylene really grew though..
For just a little bit she was willing to
show me the real her and I was to show her
how I really am just a little bit. But
Forget all of that..maybe this would be the
most important thing I ever wrote in this
journal so far. I always.. tend to keep
certain personal life events I have online
to myself only.. and not tell anyone in
real life. But earlier today.. my little
brother and sister dad. Found out I was in
love with someone. To my very own suprise..
for the first time ever.. anyone has done
for me.. He talked to me like a father
figure.. I could not help but to cry infront
of him.. I always wanted to know what it be
like to have a father in real life but
it hurt also..he does not want me to try
and be with this girl..im in love with.
She considers her a penpal only.since
I never really met her. But I want to try.
I dont think something like this.. I can
do alone..I need the support of my own
family for something like this to come
true for me. I need a job..and be able to
take care of myself before I should try
and be with someone else and take care
of them. I wanted..to say more..but I
cant at the moment..I suddenly dont want
to. Perhaps..my next entry..will be
something that comes from my heart.
There is something I want to apologize
for to certain people out there.. in
my next entry..and for those who wants
to know who this girl is..her name is
Alexandra.(prefers to be called Jenny)
She is Natzuki on palace..someone I
known since Crystal Tokyo been around.
Until again..cya
Its been impossible for me to get this person
out of my head. Its so bad.. Almost the only
thing I think about every passing moment..
I want to tell everyone..how I actually see
everything from my point of view..but always
I hold back.. so far.. only Mylene got the
chance to see a glimpse of my real self.
I dont know if she was lucky enough to be
at the right moment.. or was unlucky to
hear a past story of mine.. but she
listened.. im glad she did.. though
My respect for Mylene really grew though..
For just a little bit she was willing to
show me the real her and I was to show her
how I really am just a little bit. But
Forget all of that..maybe this would be the
most important thing I ever wrote in this
journal so far. I always.. tend to keep
certain personal life events I have online
to myself only.. and not tell anyone in
real life. But earlier today.. my little
brother and sister dad. Found out I was in
love with someone. To my very own suprise..
for the first time ever.. anyone has done
for me.. He talked to me like a father
figure.. I could not help but to cry infront
of him.. I always wanted to know what it be
like to have a father in real life but
it hurt also..he does not want me to try
and be with this girl..im in love with.
She considers her a penpal only.since
I never really met her. But I want to try.
I dont think something like this.. I can
do alone..I need the support of my own
family for something like this to come
true for me. I need a job..and be able to
take care of myself before I should try
and be with someone else and take care
of them. I wanted..to say more..but I
cant at the moment..I suddenly dont want
to. Perhaps..my next entry..will be
something that comes from my heart.
There is something I want to apologize
for to certain people out there.. in
my next entry..and for those who wants
to know who this girl is..her name is
Alexandra.(prefers to be called Jenny)
She is Natzuki on palace..someone I
known since Crystal Tokyo been around.
Until again..cya