Jan 24, 2003 20:45
you want to know what I think and feel lately?
If you think im a person who seems normally happy?
Im not normally im in a bad mood
why do I normally joke?
its cause nobody ever takes me seriously when I serious.
Alot of people pisses me off so im normally in small
groups or alone. Someone like me dont smile much.
Someone like me doesnt deserve happiness cause each time
it happens its always gets crushed by something or someone.
Now I dont care and I fight against my own stupid
human desires for it but not this time I dont want it.
If someone can kill with love, Hatred can save someone.
I know I wont suceed with what im after but I will try to
atone. I hate it when I suddenly like someone I think
my emotions are heavily damage I need alot of time to fix
them. One other thing, I loved the palace chat crystal tokyo
and I always have it saddens me to see it will soon be gone
I dont think I can ever full adjust to another palace
it annoys me and I cant get use to it. As time goes by the
old people leaves the new takes over. By the way I wanna
thank you uli for being such a good friend only you ever
seem to actually visit me without me even have to ask you
at anime dojo it lets me know who my real friend is thx