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There is only so far one can go before total breakdown.
If it were measurable on a ruler, I would be at 11.75".
Honestly... I want to let it out. I just... can't. I am so desperate, I am trying to find the words to write them here.
The people who were most important to me have left me, and no longer talk to me.
On a slightly positive side, other's have become very important to me. However... it's only a matter of time, I feel, before they choose the same path as those who came before them.
I am not afraid of commitment. I am afraid of letting my guard down. I am afraid of rushing, but afraid of staying alone. I am afraid to admit my feelings to someone, because I am afraid it might actually work out...
I am crushed. I am feel torn apart. I want to rip my hair out and yell at the top of my lungs. I want to jump in front of something, or off something else.
I want to sleep and never wake up...
If it were measurable on a ruler, I would be at 11.75".
Honestly... I want to let it out. I just... can't. I am so desperate, I am trying to find the words to write them here.
The people who were most important to me have left me, and no longer talk to me.
On a slightly positive side, other's have become very important to me. However... it's only a matter of time, I feel, before they choose the same path as those who came before them.
I am not afraid of commitment. I am afraid of letting my guard down. I am afraid of rushing, but afraid of staying alone. I am afraid to admit my feelings to someone, because I am afraid it might actually work out...
I am crushed. I am feel torn apart. I want to rip my hair out and yell at the top of my lungs. I want to jump in front of something, or off something else.
I want to sleep and never wake up...