How Dare You?
So today started out pretty nicely even though I didn't get as much accomplished as I would have liked to. I never really do during break I always tell myself I will but don't. I sent my deposit into RIT and I am really fucking excited its just the right place for me. Its close enough but also far enough which makes it more then ok by me. Things have been really hard lately with Mike with me and just with my family in general. Mike is in a play and I couldn't be happier for him he lights up on the stage and I love seeing him that happy.Its just hard because I haven't gotten to see him as much lately and I hate sounding greedy but sometimes I just want him to myself. I also have training for Victoria's secret this coming tuesday and the manager is really great. My parents have been gone since thursday and they returned home tonight. I went to walmart with my sister and she informed me of a conversation had by my mother and mikes father. I knew it couldn't be good so he basically asked my mother if she had taught me to be a lady.I was literally flabbergasted I am defiantly not an advocate of pda I try to avoid it really. With no disrespect to mike I just don't like being all over him when the time isn't right you know. So anyways upon hearing this I was furious and after we went to walmart I decided the best thing to do would be to call him. So I did and upon calling him he said it would be best if we discussed it in person so I said I would go over. Upon getting there hes like sit down blah blah take off your coat. I was furious because before I left my mom asked me about it just to have my integrity questioned like that hurt more then anything. Mikes parents proceeded to tell me that they think I am good for their son. Which I know and I know that he is good for me for the most part but his mom made it a point to tell me I should consider if this is what I really want. Granted we are not perfect people I know he is what I want it breaks my heart just thinking about leaving him next year. I mean we fight yes we hurt each other yes but I know we care about one another. Gah I am crying as I type this. They then proceeded to tell me some things that I am not going to type here out of respect for Michael and myself. But to make a long story short they wanted me to know that they were sorry for what was said on the phone and I basically couldn't put into words everything I wanted to tell them. But I know that no matter what happens I love their son and things might not the greatest right now but I am in it for the long haul.
Something else I learned over break is how great it is to spend time with someone that you haven't seen in a long time. I talked to Melissa and realized wow it sucks that we got so out of touch. Because I think I can honestly say throughout my high school career she has been the one person that would tell it like it is. All bullshit aside I could trust her just to tell me and not fuck with my head. I also have a new found appreciation for dancing in my under roos and late night sleep overs. I can also say that lost is a good show and my new found obsession break could have been longer but then again they are never long enough.
Something else I learned over break is how great it is to spend time with someone that you haven't seen in a long time. I talked to Melissa and realized wow it sucks that we got so out of touch. Because I think I can honestly say throughout my high school career she has been the one person that would tell it like it is. All bullshit aside I could trust her just to tell me and not fuck with my head. I also have a new found appreciation for dancing in my under roos and late night sleep overs. I can also say that lost is a good show and my new found obsession break could have been longer but then again they are never long enough.