going nowhere in the fake yellow light
life is moving pretty fast
ferris was right.
the world is at college. i am not at college. i am currently an employee for one of the largest corporations in the world, and i am quite happy doing so.
i hate to admit when i'm happy, as weird as that sounds. i always have this overwhelming feelings that i'll somehow jinx it. but lately, i've been really happy.
i've been meeting people that bend the barriers of cool, waiting i've done for certain things has finally payed off, my band is recording soon, i start recording new acoustic stuff this week. it's always a little scary to know that from where you stand, things look beautiful, because you know that any second you could fall fuck first into the flames of hell.
stepping back is something i've done alot lately. i've taken a step back and looked at how simply beautiful this tiny little life can be. so beautiful that it can bottle the air from your lungs and smash it violently over your face, until even a head wound is something you can find beautiful. i can tell that im not taking a second for granted because i never get the feeling that i'm killing time. no time measurment casualties. no time to kill time. too much learning to do.
"becoming a professor. becoming and learning"
i have to be up at 4:30am.
why i'm still awake is beyond me. reminds me of times i used to stay awake so i wouldn't have to wake up alone. it almost seems like X's have been placed gently on the eyes of my love life. it has been put to rest and replaced by some kind of comfort that i'm finding quite comfortable.
slipping into the real world is becoming somewhat of a saving grace for me. who knows if my days of unrequited love are over?
who can tell?
more importantly, who cares?
i don't have the ventricle capacity to care...
because when the world caves, i want to be smiling.
-adam
ferris was right.
the world is at college. i am not at college. i am currently an employee for one of the largest corporations in the world, and i am quite happy doing so.
i hate to admit when i'm happy, as weird as that sounds. i always have this overwhelming feelings that i'll somehow jinx it. but lately, i've been really happy.
i've been meeting people that bend the barriers of cool, waiting i've done for certain things has finally payed off, my band is recording soon, i start recording new acoustic stuff this week. it's always a little scary to know that from where you stand, things look beautiful, because you know that any second you could fall fuck first into the flames of hell.
stepping back is something i've done alot lately. i've taken a step back and looked at how simply beautiful this tiny little life can be. so beautiful that it can bottle the air from your lungs and smash it violently over your face, until even a head wound is something you can find beautiful. i can tell that im not taking a second for granted because i never get the feeling that i'm killing time. no time measurment casualties. no time to kill time. too much learning to do.
"becoming a professor. becoming and learning"
i have to be up at 4:30am.
why i'm still awake is beyond me. reminds me of times i used to stay awake so i wouldn't have to wake up alone. it almost seems like X's have been placed gently on the eyes of my love life. it has been put to rest and replaced by some kind of comfort that i'm finding quite comfortable.
slipping into the real world is becoming somewhat of a saving grace for me. who knows if my days of unrequited love are over?
who can tell?
more importantly, who cares?
i don't have the ventricle capacity to care...
because when the world caves, i want to be smiling.
-adam