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i haven't been in this space for the longest time.
i'm typing this right now because i know that i'm gonna have a nervous breakdown soon. this semester have passed way too fast. it felt as if it was just yesterday that summer holidays ended. i'm only having my first exam when everybody else is almost done with theirs. still can't believe baby sister heng is going back to singapore on friday to have her 6 weeks long of winter break. how fortunate. on the other hand, i still have a long 19 days to conquer.
i miss all the comforting things back home, i miss my mum and i miss nick. the only thing that keeps me going now is that nick is coming over to melbourne very very soon (in fact, right after my exams in 3 weeks' time).
i absolutely do not like the units that i am taking this semester. i hate law subjects because i can never excel in it, i hate AIS because i am a total idiot in IT, systems and controls, i hate company reporting because it is so tedious. the only thing i like is my econs unit. friends around are kinda putting a pressure on me as they kept saying "oh yes, i can HD this unit blah blah blah". and honestly, its the first time in my entire 2 years of uni life that i succumb myself to compare grades with others. i know it feels childish and its like secondary school all over again. but then again, how can i see myself not doing well when others can. hence, despite the hatred towards the units that i am studying this semester, i wrote "average score this sem > 80%" on my notice board in front of me. many of you have probably achieved that score, but not me.
sigh
i'm typing this right now because i know that i'm gonna have a nervous breakdown soon. this semester have passed way too fast. it felt as if it was just yesterday that summer holidays ended. i'm only having my first exam when everybody else is almost done with theirs. still can't believe baby sister heng is going back to singapore on friday to have her 6 weeks long of winter break. how fortunate. on the other hand, i still have a long 19 days to conquer.
i miss all the comforting things back home, i miss my mum and i miss nick. the only thing that keeps me going now is that nick is coming over to melbourne very very soon (in fact, right after my exams in 3 weeks' time).
i absolutely do not like the units that i am taking this semester. i hate law subjects because i can never excel in it, i hate AIS because i am a total idiot in IT, systems and controls, i hate company reporting because it is so tedious. the only thing i like is my econs unit. friends around are kinda putting a pressure on me as they kept saying "oh yes, i can HD this unit blah blah blah". and honestly, its the first time in my entire 2 years of uni life that i succumb myself to compare grades with others. i know it feels childish and its like secondary school all over again. but then again, how can i see myself not doing well when others can. hence, despite the hatred towards the units that i am studying this semester, i wrote "average score this sem > 80%" on my notice board in front of me. many of you have probably achieved that score, but not me.
sigh