help?

[singus_a_song]

I have this strange feeling that things are going to change, fast... and I don't know why... but All I know is that I don't think he loves me anymore. I don't think he wants to put up with me anymore, I think he doesn't have enough time for me. I miss him when he is gone and when he is here we fight. I want it to stop, I don't want to fight anymore, I'm tired of getting mad and it's always me... it's always fucking me! I swear I'm bipolar or something. I'm too in love. I know it. I feel like I'm going to end up getting hurt but I know he won't leave me and I won't leave him.... it's just I know change is coming and it might not even be with him but I have a feeling he is involved.

Btw, I love school. I love my english class and I'm reading 'To Kill A Mockingbird' and I have wanted to read that since forever. I think I'm going to just keep reading books. I want to get through this list of 100 books to read for college bound students. And then some. I already hate french 2. I hate my first period. It's going to be a peice of cake with no challenge. Algebra 2 is going to be a fucking bitch. And I have a feeling Chemistry is only going to get harder. I need a 100 something dollar calculator and a 70 dollar dress... it's pretty damn sad when your Golden Harmony dress is less than your calculator.

I love my mother. =]

MY BIRTHDAY IS 29 DAYS AWAY!!!! [September 20]