it's been a while
so, i can't remember what i've last written or not. i have a job...kinda. i start tomorrow, but i feel i should've started this past week. got my second learning stripe in TKD. there's still friction concerning kiran, but i won't go in to that now. we found a few games that all four of us could play. i yoinked "ASAP" and we played that twice, but i don't think kiran likes it too much but is too "polite" to say anything about it. we played lots of poker hands the other night, so that was good and there was laughing which has been lacking in this house of late. then we tried cards again last night, Spades this time, but i got bored with it after one game of about 10 hands. i tried to teach them Government afterwards, but i was sorta burnt and i don't think i explained it all that well, so it wasn't taken well by the boys. *sigh* made me feel like shit, but for very little reason. talked about it w/ caleb after and he explained some why to me.
other than housemate troubles, TKD, and my job starting tomorrow, i really don't have much else to say. i miss my structured days and i'm excited for next semester, but i don't really miss people. here, i have someone to love and someone to love me, i have someone to like and someone to like me, and i have someone who isn't quite compatable with me so it doesn't matter is we like each other or not, but it does keep all my emotions mixed up. also, i have these boys here, and i have girl friends at tkd and not only adult/motherly women, but younger teenage girls as well (and *shudders* even making aquantances with the elementary school aged kids) so my interactions with people are a wide variety to keep me from getting too settled with one type of peoples, and i like that. i'm happy here, in the living bit. just not always in the minute to minute, who i'm with/where i am bits. my swings are getting stronger and i hope that a job will even me out some.
other than housemate troubles, TKD, and my job starting tomorrow, i really don't have much else to say. i miss my structured days and i'm excited for next semester, but i don't really miss people. here, i have someone to love and someone to love me, i have someone to like and someone to like me, and i have someone who isn't quite compatable with me so it doesn't matter is we like each other or not, but it does keep all my emotions mixed up. also, i have these boys here, and i have girl friends at tkd and not only adult/motherly women, but younger teenage girls as well (and *shudders* even making aquantances with the elementary school aged kids) so my interactions with people are a wide variety to keep me from getting too settled with one type of peoples, and i like that. i'm happy here, in the living bit. just not always in the minute to minute, who i'm with/where i am bits. my swings are getting stronger and i hope that a job will even me out some.