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so i'm just realizing how many friends i have that are leaving very soon .... camille's going to spain, sean's going to london, beautiful's staying in hawaii for a semester, jordan's going to texas, the germans are going back to germany.... and then, after the whole caitlin mishap - a situation that goes to prove just how much i hate drama and flee from it faster than sound - i feel like in miami there are so few girls left that i can be real with... it seems sometimes that guys are so much more real..or unguarded....or something... i can't put my finger on it.
after self-analyzing, i've discovered that i believe my issue lies more in the fact that from getting burned so many times, i don't see the point in investing any more time or effort in new friendships and relationships, ...it's just another round of getting burnt at an unknown point in time. Burned: a fun game for the entire family.
i'm disgusted by how much of a coward i am, for someone who claims to be so free.
i told someone the other night that with certain things you just have to "get over it".... that's what i have to do now, i think...get over it, move on, look forward, aim high, accept, forgive, live. and not eat as much.
and i reaaaally need to work on opening up. baby steps. one scar at a time. i'm glad that some people will push me ... i need to be pushed.
i'm trying so damned hard to like coffee. and house music. neither are working out well.
i love the sound of my sister's laugh. it's authentic.
after self-analyzing, i've discovered that i believe my issue lies more in the fact that from getting burned so many times, i don't see the point in investing any more time or effort in new friendships and relationships, ...it's just another round of getting burnt at an unknown point in time. Burned: a fun game for the entire family.
i'm disgusted by how much of a coward i am, for someone who claims to be so free.
i told someone the other night that with certain things you just have to "get over it".... that's what i have to do now, i think...get over it, move on, look forward, aim high, accept, forgive, live. and not eat as much.
and i reaaaally need to work on opening up. baby steps. one scar at a time. i'm glad that some people will push me ... i need to be pushed.
i'm trying so damned hard to like coffee. and house music. neither are working out well.
i love the sound of my sister's laugh. it's authentic.