change is good
did my life peak already?
i used to feel sorry for the people whose lives peaked in high school. now i'm just as bad off as they are. i think my life peaked in college. and all i have now is a bunch of fun pictures, memories, but not much else. I didn't even manage to get a degree... maybe that means college isn't over, so my life will go back to being extremely fun and eventful when i (god willing) finish up?
Still, I remember getting SO mad at my friends for not hanging out with me enough. Sometimes I felt like I loved everyone so much more than they loved me. I know Amy felt that sometimes, too. I guess it's normal. I feel that way now even, but with different friends. In five years, will I look back at these years and miss my urban friends and aimless woodlands nights that make me feel like I'm having some sort of high school part II experience? will i just have more pictures and memories and a new sense of loss? does this make me needy?
Basically, I miss Austin and all my old Austin friends (like you, dear reader!) in a very powerful way. I wonder if i can relive old times somehow... When I visit the old haunts maybe, see the old folks? but everyone has moved on. do they feel the loss sometimes? i sure hope so. that might confirm my love for them.
I really don't get it. When did we learn how to deal with this in school? I must have missed that class.
i used to feel sorry for the people whose lives peaked in high school. now i'm just as bad off as they are. i think my life peaked in college. and all i have now is a bunch of fun pictures, memories, but not much else. I didn't even manage to get a degree... maybe that means college isn't over, so my life will go back to being extremely fun and eventful when i (god willing) finish up?
Still, I remember getting SO mad at my friends for not hanging out with me enough. Sometimes I felt like I loved everyone so much more than they loved me. I know Amy felt that sometimes, too. I guess it's normal. I feel that way now even, but with different friends. In five years, will I look back at these years and miss my urban friends and aimless woodlands nights that make me feel like I'm having some sort of high school part II experience? will i just have more pictures and memories and a new sense of loss? does this make me needy?
Basically, I miss Austin and all my old Austin friends (like you, dear reader!) in a very powerful way. I wonder if i can relive old times somehow... When I visit the old haunts maybe, see the old folks? but everyone has moved on. do they feel the loss sometimes? i sure hope so. that might confirm my love for them.
I really don't get it. When did we learn how to deal with this in school? I must have missed that class.