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close my eyes let the whole thing pass me by....
Yesterday I cleaned the house and it looks pretty it took a long time to. Then Sarah came over and we went to east hill and she got some cd's. Then i had to go to practice and that was hell i had to be there an hour early and it wasnt fun i hit for 15 min. straight and in the heat and stuff thats alot then almost imediatly after we had feilding practise so that was fun..not. Then I Had to hit agin... so at the end of practise i was drenched in sweat not to mention clay and extremly tired.
Tonight I think I'm going to sarahs and we might go downtown... I'm kinda looking forward to it. Maybe because i know i can get another pack or two of ciggys to hold me for a while.. i smoked my last 2 yesterday and since lat night ive been craving one somethin bad.
For the 4th of July me and sarah and meagan and hopefully heidi if she doesnt already have plans are going to kik it at sarahs.. haha lots of fun.. swimming, and CCC haha woooooo... ya baby dont forget fireworks to...hehe...almost scary well at least i think so. im excited though cant wait.
I feel like I'm in emotional rehab... almost like im going through withdraws. kinda like ive isolated my self so i can figure things out and know whats going on in my life because im haveing problems with that rite now. but its ok. Im going to fix things im going to get better and im going to get off these meds. and if im lucky ill be off them by .... febuary.
You know i dont know what i would do with out my friends. Escpecially Heidi and Sarah. You guys I love you. Your always there for me even when its the same thing over and over, you deal with all my problems and dont complain about how i go through the same thing over and over and over... thank you for being there i dont know what i would do with out you guys.
so fare well for rite now im going to go do something er other....maybe... i dont know..
Yesterday I cleaned the house and it looks pretty it took a long time to. Then Sarah came over and we went to east hill and she got some cd's. Then i had to go to practice and that was hell i had to be there an hour early and it wasnt fun i hit for 15 min. straight and in the heat and stuff thats alot then almost imediatly after we had feilding practise so that was fun..not. Then I Had to hit agin... so at the end of practise i was drenched in sweat not to mention clay and extremly tired.
Tonight I think I'm going to sarahs and we might go downtown... I'm kinda looking forward to it. Maybe because i know i can get another pack or two of ciggys to hold me for a while.. i smoked my last 2 yesterday and since lat night ive been craving one somethin bad.
For the 4th of July me and sarah and meagan and hopefully heidi if she doesnt already have plans are going to kik it at sarahs.. haha lots of fun.. swimming, and CCC haha woooooo... ya baby dont forget fireworks to...hehe...almost scary well at least i think so. im excited though cant wait.
I feel like I'm in emotional rehab... almost like im going through withdraws. kinda like ive isolated my self so i can figure things out and know whats going on in my life because im haveing problems with that rite now. but its ok. Im going to fix things im going to get better and im going to get off these meds. and if im lucky ill be off them by .... febuary.
You know i dont know what i would do with out my friends. Escpecially Heidi and Sarah. You guys I love you. Your always there for me even when its the same thing over and over, you deal with all my problems and dont complain about how i go through the same thing over and over and over... thank you for being there i dont know what i would do with out you guys.
so fare well for rite now im going to go do something er other....maybe... i dont know..