i dont know...
lets see...it seems to be a week of all old lovers calling me again. my girls and i went to corona to celebrate JJ's birthday. then we saw the beach house and it was the biggest disappointment. obviously...it didnt work out. afterwards we went apartment hunting all over irvine and we found some we liked and some we didnt. but needless to say...we're very excited about moving into one next year. i get my single room!! im very excited about that. im sorry...i love having my own room and not just because of the sex thing. i mean i promised the girls that i wouldnt bring home random guys anyways. its the fact that i like to sleep naked or just have time uninterupted ESPECIALLY in my sleep. my roommate somehow hardly ever allowed me to have that. we're all talking about shopping at IKEA and everything so that was really fun. kelly doesnt want our apartment to look tacky but we'll try our best. im thinking a sofa rollout double bed for my room but i dont know. after apartment hunting, we went shopping for adrone's prom dress and vic's friend johnny came along. that was an interesting night. he told her that he still had feelings for her and she just didnt know what to do. then i went to see ralph again before he went to arizona for two weeks. i told him that i still liked him but there was no pressure. cuz i always knew that nothing can ever happen. came back and vic broke up with her boyfriend so i went to talk to her till 5am. the next day, we went to color me mine to paint stuff for our moms for mother's day. after we went shopping again for adrone's prom dress and she bought a beautiful green halter dress that we all loved. i bought a green halter minidress for the semiformal. im surprised...i really like it. im gonna wear it with my 5 inch black heels and im really excited now. vic also bought a new dress so we're going as dates but we're all going stag so it doesnt matter. hope the semi is fun. steve was supposed to call me sunday night for a date. he never did and i havent heard from him since sunday morning. hope hes ok. i should be more upset but im not. which probably tells me that i shouldnt go out with him again. then out of NOWHERE...CHRIS IMED ME! not chris from UCI but from SF. he basically told me he missed me and that he never meant to hurt me at all. i was doing so well...when he never talked to me again. why did he have to do that? why do guys think that they can ignore you for months and suddenly waltz back into your life and leave a mark there again? im removing it and i want it permanently removed. it didnt have any effect on me in the beginning and then i got to thinking again. i hate that. i was doing so well...getting over him and everything. IM NOT GONNA THINK ABOUT IT ANYMORE! i am not...hes an asshole! no more crap! and conveniently Janet Jackson's Again was playing the entire time we were talking.
I heard from a friend today And she said you were in town Suddenly the memories came back to me in my Mind CHORUS How can I be strong I've asked myself Time and time I've said That I'll never fall in love with you again A wounded heart you gave My soul you took away Good intentions you had many I know you did I come from a place that hurts And God knows how I've cried And I never want to return never fall again Making love to you Oh it felt so good and Oh so right CHORUS So here we are alone again' Didn't think it'd come to this And to know it all began With just a little kiss I've come too close to happiness To have it swept away Don't think I can take the pain No never fall again Kinda late in the game and my heart is in Your hands Don't you stand there and then Tell me you love Me then leave again Cause I'm falling in love with You again Hold me Hold me Don't ever let me go Say it just one time Say you love me God knows I do Love you Again
how convenient but i dont want him back and i dont want to have anything to do with him. ok enough about that ass...dustin called me today. just to say hi and that he broke up wtih his gf and that he misses me. he is so weird. its like he thinks i want him but i really dont. he is a great kisser though which is a plus but hes not really my type. its weird...i saw a cute couple today and i didnt feel a twinge of longing. i said to myself...wow...im happy that they found each other. its so weird. OH...and yesterday vic introduced me to her friend andrew and he is the most adorable guy ive ever met. hes one of those guys you can never hate cuz hes the nicest and funnest guy ever. i think i have a little crush...haha! oh well...he doesnt like girls like me anyways. i just want to be his friend. haha. more news...ralph JUST told me that he might be moving to arizona. surprisingly...i wasnt upset becuz somehow i always knew he was gonna leave me for good. i was just waiting for the time to come. he says hes not for sure but chances are he will be moving for sure. and the boy has a problem with greetings...i asked him how are you and the first thing he said was i want to see you again. its like he cant answer questions. anyways...sorry for the long journal entry guys...its been a long time. update later and hopefully sooner.