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Update?
I think I'm depressed. As in having the condition of. I've been tired for the past three or four months and no amount of sleep makes it better. Nothing seems worth it anymore, and I just feel like staying home/going to youth/getting online... but ultimately and above everything else, I just want to sleep. It's all I really have the energy for, it seems. I don't really even want to see friends anymore. Like.. the ones I actually enjoy being around tend to annoy me, and that's not good.
Michael and I seem to have severed ties. There's a short conversation maybe once a week. I'm a lot happier about this than I think even I realize, because it gives me a chance to let go of having him around. It seems he was a lot bigger part of my life than I thought. I don't know how him and his new girlfriend are doing, and quite frankly, I don't want to know. I wish them the best, but I don't even want to hear her name or think about her, much less have a conversation with him about her. It really just bothers me, and I'm not sure why.
Ryan, Truex said give him a call, and Mr Gardner said the same, if you want to see him also.
Orchestra is going well. Our concert for the first semester is on the 17th of this month. It'll be exciting. I have a solo, and even though it's not that big, it's pretty neat. I still find it extremely odd that I'm now in the same class as the teacher that first taught me how to play. How strange.
I'm kind of a messed up person right now. That's probably all that really needs to be said. I don't know how to handle myself, yet I don't want to hear advice from anyone else. I don't want to see anyone, yet I miss people from my past and wish I could be with them again. I want to talk to certain people, I just never get around to it, on purpose. I'm completely backwards, and it's really annoying. The entire time I've been in school I've started a routine, and I haven't gotten out of it yet. There's no excitement anymore. I don't know what's happened to me.. I just really don't care about anything. It's kind of irritating, and yet... I don't want to care about anything, because... I don't know. I'm tired. I'm always tired.
I hate doing the stupid senior memory book. Ryan, did you have to make one? If so, where is it? I'd like to see it sometime.
I think I'm depressed. As in having the condition of. I've been tired for the past three or four months and no amount of sleep makes it better. Nothing seems worth it anymore, and I just feel like staying home/going to youth/getting online... but ultimately and above everything else, I just want to sleep. It's all I really have the energy for, it seems. I don't really even want to see friends anymore. Like.. the ones I actually enjoy being around tend to annoy me, and that's not good.
Michael and I seem to have severed ties. There's a short conversation maybe once a week. I'm a lot happier about this than I think even I realize, because it gives me a chance to let go of having him around. It seems he was a lot bigger part of my life than I thought. I don't know how him and his new girlfriend are doing, and quite frankly, I don't want to know. I wish them the best, but I don't even want to hear her name or think about her, much less have a conversation with him about her. It really just bothers me, and I'm not sure why.
Ryan, Truex said give him a call, and Mr Gardner said the same, if you want to see him also.
Orchestra is going well. Our concert for the first semester is on the 17th of this month. It'll be exciting. I have a solo, and even though it's not that big, it's pretty neat. I still find it extremely odd that I'm now in the same class as the teacher that first taught me how to play. How strange.
I'm kind of a messed up person right now. That's probably all that really needs to be said. I don't know how to handle myself, yet I don't want to hear advice from anyone else. I don't want to see anyone, yet I miss people from my past and wish I could be with them again. I want to talk to certain people, I just never get around to it, on purpose. I'm completely backwards, and it's really annoying. The entire time I've been in school I've started a routine, and I haven't gotten out of it yet. There's no excitement anymore. I don't know what's happened to me.. I just really don't care about anything. It's kind of irritating, and yet... I don't want to care about anything, because... I don't know. I'm tired. I'm always tired.
I hate doing the stupid senior memory book. Ryan, did you have to make one? If so, where is it? I'd like to see it sometime.