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school is basically over for me, so at night i've been acting like its summer and in the day i've sort of been half-there in all of my classes. i haven't done any homework in a good twelve days and i have lots of stuff to do but i just sincerely do not feel the need to do it.
i get to do all this fun stuff after school and i love being busy. i went to the ghs/wick lacrosse game last night, which was fun. i get to see kelly a lot more now, which is really excellent and we went out to dinner at glenville pizza after the game and they didn't make us pay...they are ridiculously nice there.
i'm really relaxed and i feel like i'm easing my way into summer right now. i love how summer smells and how we all went swimming at j-sizzles yesterday and i love starting to feel free again.
heres something weird: we're going to be seniors so soon. i can't believe im finally at that time where we're all like "we need to make the best of our last year together." there's like this weird pressure to make everything meaningful and soak up everything about our friends and right now thats just unsettling. its hard to believe that it's ME going through the college process and ME thinking about what im going to do without my best friends. i feel this literal sense of loss - like this sick feeling of emptiness - when i think about not living at carrie's and melissa's anymore and not having simnic and this group of like ten girls that know everything about eachother to fall back on. obviously im going to make the best friends of my life in college, but that awkward time between having the complete understanding with a group of people is just really daunting. i don't know why i'm worring about this yet...i have the most AMAZING year ahead of me.
im legitimately going to miss this year's seniors so much, by the way.
clearly i've had too much time to think. also ive discovered that i have a severe time management issue, and i dont even care.
sometimes i feel like im not really me anymore.
im freaking myself out.
kay
stay straight bitches
s
i get to do all this fun stuff after school and i love being busy. i went to the ghs/wick lacrosse game last night, which was fun. i get to see kelly a lot more now, which is really excellent and we went out to dinner at glenville pizza after the game and they didn't make us pay...they are ridiculously nice there.
i'm really relaxed and i feel like i'm easing my way into summer right now. i love how summer smells and how we all went swimming at j-sizzles yesterday and i love starting to feel free again.
heres something weird: we're going to be seniors so soon. i can't believe im finally at that time where we're all like "we need to make the best of our last year together." there's like this weird pressure to make everything meaningful and soak up everything about our friends and right now thats just unsettling. its hard to believe that it's ME going through the college process and ME thinking about what im going to do without my best friends. i feel this literal sense of loss - like this sick feeling of emptiness - when i think about not living at carrie's and melissa's anymore and not having simnic and this group of like ten girls that know everything about eachother to fall back on. obviously im going to make the best friends of my life in college, but that awkward time between having the complete understanding with a group of people is just really daunting. i don't know why i'm worring about this yet...i have the most AMAZING year ahead of me.
im legitimately going to miss this year's seniors so much, by the way.
clearly i've had too much time to think. also ive discovered that i have a severe time management issue, and i dont even care.
sometimes i feel like im not really me anymore.
im freaking myself out.
kay
stay straight bitches
s