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So 2007...
is the shittiest year ever. Why is it only January 15th?
This allergic reaction skin problem I'm having is weird. It was almost gone on my face but my body was still a lil messed up. Now my body is getting much much better but my face is reacting again. I hope it's just cuz my regular allergies are bothering me. As far as I can tell, I don't feel like there is anything I've been eating or drinking or consuming or wearing or applying in any way that can be affecting me. It had to start with something before X-mas I don't use or eat often and it just hasn't gone away yet.
I spent all of last week at work or with my cousins. Turns out my uncle most likely suffered a stroke or hemmorage or something b/c of the brain tumor. At least he went quickly. I still feel horrible for the family. I will really miss him so very much. I hadn't seen him much lately and he was getting pretty bad with comprehension and understanding but you don't really realize this or let it affect you until they really are gone. I've always been so close with my cousins. We grew up together. My aunt and uncle were a 2nd set of parents to me. I have so many wonderful memories with my cousins and their parents are always close by if not actually invloved in them. I'm glad I decided not to do the reading at the funeral b/c while I was composed, I cried almost the entire time I was in the church.
Now to make matters worse, and really what are the chances this happened so soon?, my childhood best friend's mother is about to die. We grew apart a very long time ago, but she'll always be a very best friend to me. Her brother just got engaged to one of my cousins. When I stopped hanging out with her, her and Ange got really close. They've grown apart too a little but they still live up the same street so they're closer then I am to her. Her other got sick and tonight was ruched into open heart surgery and she died for 10 minutes, They came out and told the family that she had died. Then they managed to revive her heart. Several hours later I spoke with my cousin Tina and she said that b/c her heart had stopped for so long, she is now in the OR brain dead. They don't know if she will make it through the night. One week and 2 days after my cousin loses her dad, one of her best friends is about to lose her mother. Jakki, I know how you feel now. I know you had an awful year last year and it looks as though I'm in your shadow. This is absoutley awful.
Now I start school tomorrow and I was pretty stressed as it was. I have this one class that Im pretty much terrified of. My stomach was in knots already. But now I feel like Im going to puke. I have to stop at Tina's house tomorrow to pick up some shit for school and I am petrified that I will go there to find out this woman is dead.
I hope to god its just January and the rest of the year will improve.
is the shittiest year ever. Why is it only January 15th?
This allergic reaction skin problem I'm having is weird. It was almost gone on my face but my body was still a lil messed up. Now my body is getting much much better but my face is reacting again. I hope it's just cuz my regular allergies are bothering me. As far as I can tell, I don't feel like there is anything I've been eating or drinking or consuming or wearing or applying in any way that can be affecting me. It had to start with something before X-mas I don't use or eat often and it just hasn't gone away yet.
I spent all of last week at work or with my cousins. Turns out my uncle most likely suffered a stroke or hemmorage or something b/c of the brain tumor. At least he went quickly. I still feel horrible for the family. I will really miss him so very much. I hadn't seen him much lately and he was getting pretty bad with comprehension and understanding but you don't really realize this or let it affect you until they really are gone. I've always been so close with my cousins. We grew up together. My aunt and uncle were a 2nd set of parents to me. I have so many wonderful memories with my cousins and their parents are always close by if not actually invloved in them. I'm glad I decided not to do the reading at the funeral b/c while I was composed, I cried almost the entire time I was in the church.
Now to make matters worse, and really what are the chances this happened so soon?, my childhood best friend's mother is about to die. We grew apart a very long time ago, but she'll always be a very best friend to me. Her brother just got engaged to one of my cousins. When I stopped hanging out with her, her and Ange got really close. They've grown apart too a little but they still live up the same street so they're closer then I am to her. Her other got sick and tonight was ruched into open heart surgery and she died for 10 minutes, They came out and told the family that she had died. Then they managed to revive her heart. Several hours later I spoke with my cousin Tina and she said that b/c her heart had stopped for so long, she is now in the OR brain dead. They don't know if she will make it through the night. One week and 2 days after my cousin loses her dad, one of her best friends is about to lose her mother. Jakki, I know how you feel now. I know you had an awful year last year and it looks as though I'm in your shadow. This is absoutley awful.
Now I start school tomorrow and I was pretty stressed as it was. I have this one class that Im pretty much terrified of. My stomach was in knots already. But now I feel like Im going to puke. I have to stop at Tina's house tomorrow to pick up some shit for school and I am petrified that I will go there to find out this woman is dead.
I hope to god its just January and the rest of the year will improve.