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I want to post something, but i don't know what to post. All I know is i read and i read and i read all of your guys' posts, but i never write anything of my own. What do I say about where I am? The Lord is doing so much in me. For the first time I can finally see the verses he spoke over me coming to fruition in my own life. I have heard people say they can see it in me, but for the first time I can see it for my self.
"Arise [from the depression and prostration in which circumstances have kept you- rise to a new life]! Shine (be radiant with the glory of the Lord), for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you! For behold, darkness shall cover the earth, and dense darkness [all] peoples, but the Lord shall arise upon you [O Jerusalem}, and His glory shall be seen on you." Isaiah 60:1-2
I truly feel alive. It was spoken of me several years ago that I would enter a time of rest and communion with God and when I stepped back into ministry it would be as if I was coming off the mountaintop like Moses with my face shining from the glory of the Lord being revealed to me. I stepped back into leadership about 6 months ago, but this January during the New Years celebration the Lord said he wanted to give me his anointing in a new way. One that would require boldness and love and commitment. He asked me to choose now whom I would serve Him or my own fears, insecurities, dreams, and ideas about my life and his part in it. I am thankful that He gave me the grace to choose Him. And I felt His anointing pour over me. (i know i haven't shared this with many of you...I have a hard time sharing...the Lord does so much in me, but i so often feel the "leader" part that i do not believe you all would like to hear about my personal life. I repent for that fear and judgment) I started to dance with a freedom I had never known before. Since then I have been changed. My head is clearer, my spirit stronger. My love for people more unconditional. It wasn't until this weekend however did i truly begin to understand the Glory of the Lord. I don't think I will ever fully grasp it, but the glimpse of His glory was more amazing and more profound than anything I can put into words. I don't understand why the Lord showed me His face this weekend, or why he allowed me such grace to boldly enter his throne room on behalf of you all. I truly feel more alive than I have ever felt. Not only do I have a relationship with the Lord, but I have an intimate relationship like I have never known. Later Sunday Night the Lord continued to do wonders in my soul as He further drove away the insecurities that have been holding me prisoner from stepping out into the leader and friend that my heart has longed to be. He spoke to me of the worth he has given me. Of my being set apart before my birth as His daughter and His servant. My struggle has been between the two. I have always felt the servant, perhaps even the daughter, but never the sister. But Sunday He spoke of His choice...His choice for me. And how His choice places me in his family, in his household and no amount of rejection, or perceived rejection can ever remove my rightful place in His kingdom. It is my duty to act like His daughter. I had not been doing that. I had been giving into the insecurities and hopelessness that said I am a servant, a leader and nothing more. But He rebuked that in me and showed me that I am the only one that can take my inheritance away. I am His daughter and I am your sister. I do not have to be afraid of relationships, I do not have to be afraid to be myself. And most importantly, I do not have to be afraid to share what the Lord is doing in me. You are all my family and I chose to believe you want to know the Lord's work in my life. I choose to believe I am not just a leader to you all. I choose to believe you love me dearly. There is no fear in Love. and I am loved.
"You shall also be [so beautiful and prosperous as to be thought of as] a crown of glory and honor in the hand of the Lord, and a royal diadem [exceedingly beautiful] in the hand of you God. You [Judah] shall no more be termed Forsaken, nor shall your land be called Desolate any more. But you shall be called Hephzibah [My delight is in her], and your land be called Beulah [married]; for the Lord delights in you, and your land shall be married [owned and protected by the Lord].....Behold, the Lord has proclaimed to the end of the earth: Say to the Daughter of Zion, Behold, your salvation comes [in the person of the Lord]; behold, His reward is with Him, and His work and recompense before Him. And they shall call them the Holy People, the Redeemed of the Lord; and you shall be called Sought Out, a City Not Forsaken. " Isaiah 62: 3-4, 11-12
"Arise [from the depression and prostration in which circumstances have kept you- rise to a new life]! Shine (be radiant with the glory of the Lord), for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you! For behold, darkness shall cover the earth, and dense darkness [all] peoples, but the Lord shall arise upon you [O Jerusalem}, and His glory shall be seen on you." Isaiah 60:1-2
I truly feel alive. It was spoken of me several years ago that I would enter a time of rest and communion with God and when I stepped back into ministry it would be as if I was coming off the mountaintop like Moses with my face shining from the glory of the Lord being revealed to me. I stepped back into leadership about 6 months ago, but this January during the New Years celebration the Lord said he wanted to give me his anointing in a new way. One that would require boldness and love and commitment. He asked me to choose now whom I would serve Him or my own fears, insecurities, dreams, and ideas about my life and his part in it. I am thankful that He gave me the grace to choose Him. And I felt His anointing pour over me. (i know i haven't shared this with many of you...I have a hard time sharing...the Lord does so much in me, but i so often feel the "leader" part that i do not believe you all would like to hear about my personal life. I repent for that fear and judgment) I started to dance with a freedom I had never known before. Since then I have been changed. My head is clearer, my spirit stronger. My love for people more unconditional. It wasn't until this weekend however did i truly begin to understand the Glory of the Lord. I don't think I will ever fully grasp it, but the glimpse of His glory was more amazing and more profound than anything I can put into words. I don't understand why the Lord showed me His face this weekend, or why he allowed me such grace to boldly enter his throne room on behalf of you all. I truly feel more alive than I have ever felt. Not only do I have a relationship with the Lord, but I have an intimate relationship like I have never known. Later Sunday Night the Lord continued to do wonders in my soul as He further drove away the insecurities that have been holding me prisoner from stepping out into the leader and friend that my heart has longed to be. He spoke to me of the worth he has given me. Of my being set apart before my birth as His daughter and His servant. My struggle has been between the two. I have always felt the servant, perhaps even the daughter, but never the sister. But Sunday He spoke of His choice...His choice for me. And how His choice places me in his family, in his household and no amount of rejection, or perceived rejection can ever remove my rightful place in His kingdom. It is my duty to act like His daughter. I had not been doing that. I had been giving into the insecurities and hopelessness that said I am a servant, a leader and nothing more. But He rebuked that in me and showed me that I am the only one that can take my inheritance away. I am His daughter and I am your sister. I do not have to be afraid of relationships, I do not have to be afraid to be myself. And most importantly, I do not have to be afraid to share what the Lord is doing in me. You are all my family and I chose to believe you want to know the Lord's work in my life. I choose to believe I am not just a leader to you all. I choose to believe you love me dearly. There is no fear in Love. and I am loved.
"You shall also be [so beautiful and prosperous as to be thought of as] a crown of glory and honor in the hand of the Lord, and a royal diadem [exceedingly beautiful] in the hand of you God. You [Judah] shall no more be termed Forsaken, nor shall your land be called Desolate any more. But you shall be called Hephzibah [My delight is in her], and your land be called Beulah [married]; for the Lord delights in you, and your land shall be married [owned and protected by the Lord].....Behold, the Lord has proclaimed to the end of the earth: Say to the Daughter of Zion, Behold, your salvation comes [in the person of the Lord]; behold, His reward is with Him, and His work and recompense before Him. And they shall call them the Holy People, the Redeemed of the Lord; and you shall be called Sought Out, a City Not Forsaken. " Isaiah 62: 3-4, 11-12