last night
last night was shitty. i was an idiot and re-read the letter to my 'father'. yes, it makes me an idiot because then it made me overthink. made me remember. made me feel things i didnt want to relive let alone feel the first time. i wanted to do something stupid. but i didnt. i cant. Josh doesnt want me to and i love him more then anything. he makes me smile. he makes me forget. and whats best is that he loves me back.
i want school to start. i need the distraction.
i want september to come. then i can email the letter
i want monday to come. i get to see Josh. i get to see him every school day unless one of us gets sick because we have 2 periods together. plus he'll prbly come over after school on days he's working because somehow, its a quicker walk from my house to his work then his apartment to his work.
the laptop's also pissing me off, i want our other computer back!! the laptop freezes and the battery plug randomly gets knocked out of place so i have to spend like 5 minutes trying to get it back in so it doesnt shut off.
i want school to start. i need the distraction.
i want september to come. then i can email the letter
i want monday to come. i get to see Josh. i get to see him every school day unless one of us gets sick because we have 2 periods together. plus he'll prbly come over after school on days he's working because somehow, its a quicker walk from my house to his work then his apartment to his work.
the laptop's also pissing me off, i want our other computer back!! the laptop freezes and the battery plug randomly gets knocked out of place so i have to spend like 5 minutes trying to get it back in so it doesnt shut off.