*smiles even more*

[singinsolo]

josh came back!! he was gone for about an hour and a half but then since the game was over, he called and asked if he'd be able to come back over. i called my mother to ask if she could take him home when she got home and she said yes!! she is amazing for now!! *for now=keywords*
so he just left. but i'm happy because we just layed on the couch the whole time. i had to stay home. my sisters out on a date and hennessy's sleeping. he fell asleep again. i was laying on his chest and he had his arm wrapped around me. and we were holding hands for the majority of the time. i'm quite content right now. i still smell him because of the amount of time i spent laying on him/with him today. and its amazing.

i love him.
but i cant tell him
i want to
but i cant
its almost as if somethings stopping me from saying it until he officially says it...
holy crap i'm so happy right now.and i'm trying to cuss less. because 1) i need to because of Hennessy and 2) Josh wants me to do it less. i figure, hey, i need to ease up on it anyway, and if my boyfriend thinks i should ease up, why not?

well, i'm gonna go "talk" to people on aim or just read things online.
later