He came home..

[singininmysleep]

I cry. I keep crying. I can't help it. I want to die. I am all alone in this world right now. I am alone in my marriage. My kids hate me. The guy I am married to treats me like shit. My aunt is a bitch. My parents have too many of their own problems for me to confide in/talk to them. My sister has her own life now. My brothers aren't ever around.

Comments

[g7gurl]

am i the only one that ever thought this? maybe i am...but sweetie, it's not worth all this pain and emotional trauma. you and your children deserve to be in a loving, supporting marriage. anything else isnt good for either of you. LEAVE HIM. so he makes threats of custody? so what! you know what i say? prove it with a hidden camera or bring it into court. get evidence from surrounding friends and familys. he wants the kids? where was he when they were BORN. obviously not by your side but for a second, complaining.

"I was an intellectual with a high IQ and a level head. I had dreams, hopes and aspirations. I was motivated. I thought better of myself, physically and emotionally." You are still that person of intellect and high iq, bring yourself back to a level head by getting rid of him and pursuing your dreams, hopes, and aspirations. he's holding you back, from being happy as a simple human being, you deserve more, deserve to be loved. i know its easy to suggest and hard to do, and forgive for perhaps suggesting it at all, but i remember you once as a happy person, and you deserve better than this. you deserve more. much much more. please think about that, and not only think, but make something of it. *hugs*

[winifred]

I agree with this. It sounds like your husband is emotionally abusive. Comments threatening to take away your children if you leave is a control tactic designed to make you fear leaving him. Unless you're a drug addict who repeatedly neglects or beats your babies senseless, no judge is going to award custody to your husband, no matter what kind of "nice guy" act he pulls.

There are resources to help women in your situation, and I hope you use them. It's not too late to do so. You can recover from his abuse -- where there's a will, there's a way.

I send you strength and hope from up here in the Pacific Northwest. Hang in there.