bye-bye, Rob...
Speak of the devil -- after I wrote that entry about Rob I got an email from him. It was titled: "YAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRH!" It said: "Call me tonight." Why? Because tomorrow he leaves. For Salamanca. For the entire summer.
:( You'd think I'd be fine with this, seeing as ever since I left for college my life has been pretty much nothing BUT goodbyes... but I'm not. I am really, really feeling his absence already. I want to go to the Red with him, I want to climb, I want to go to UDF for icecream and Border's to read gear guides and Andy's house... it is only recently that we really started to bond and hang out so much, which makes it that much crueler to have him leave for so long already. :(
Damnit, I have a family here now. I think I seriously would have wept if I had had to go back to West Chester. I have a family there, as well, but they are more transitory and not always accessible... and yet I find that I am constantly missing them, even as if I were to go I would constantly miss it here. But, like I said, my relationships with people here are somehow different... I can't say deeper, as just look at how B and I are together, for example... but different. There are no age lines here, there are no separations based on walks of life. We are all fighting to live on our own here, not to be sheltered in our parent's nests. Some of my friends could be my parents; this does not bother me in the least. I marvel at where I stand right now. It is not what I expected.
I want to go home and see Miss Walters. I want to hoard lots of Kat before she leaves. I want to see Myrna again for the first time in a painfully long time, and I want to make mischief with B as is our long-established custom.
But I don't want to leave here, either, I want to stay and go hiking with Mike and get muddy with Jenni and go out for dinner with Meghan somewhere... and the list could go on for a while, but will not because the time for work draws near.
Maybe after I say goodbye to Rob I will somehow feel better, instead of feeling this illogical and irrational terror at the thought of his absence.
Please be safe, Rob. Please be happy.
Please don't forgot to come home to your little sister. ;___;
:( You'd think I'd be fine with this, seeing as ever since I left for college my life has been pretty much nothing BUT goodbyes... but I'm not. I am really, really feeling his absence already. I want to go to the Red with him, I want to climb, I want to go to UDF for icecream and Border's to read gear guides and Andy's house... it is only recently that we really started to bond and hang out so much, which makes it that much crueler to have him leave for so long already. :(
Damnit, I have a family here now. I think I seriously would have wept if I had had to go back to West Chester. I have a family there, as well, but they are more transitory and not always accessible... and yet I find that I am constantly missing them, even as if I were to go I would constantly miss it here. But, like I said, my relationships with people here are somehow different... I can't say deeper, as just look at how B and I are together, for example... but different. There are no age lines here, there are no separations based on walks of life. We are all fighting to live on our own here, not to be sheltered in our parent's nests. Some of my friends could be my parents; this does not bother me in the least. I marvel at where I stand right now. It is not what I expected.
I want to go home and see Miss Walters. I want to hoard lots of Kat before she leaves. I want to see Myrna again for the first time in a painfully long time, and I want to make mischief with B as is our long-established custom.
But I don't want to leave here, either, I want to stay and go hiking with Mike and get muddy with Jenni and go out for dinner with Meghan somewhere... and the list could go on for a while, but will not because the time for work draws near.
Maybe after I say goodbye to Rob I will somehow feel better, instead of feeling this illogical and irrational terror at the thought of his absence.
Please be safe, Rob. Please be happy.
Please don't forgot to come home to your little sister. ;___;