the future.. is comin' on
For some reason I can't stop daydreaming about graduate school in Arizona. Grad school will be hard and tricky, and it would be awful to leave everybody behind... and yet the thought of going far away somehow appeals to me. So does another climate zone, just to experience it for a few years. I'm not sure why Arizona in particular is in my head, but it is. It's hard to shake! My brother's in California, so it wouldn't be that ridiculous of a stretch... but then again, he got a massive scholarship and I'm over here still trying to fix my mediocre grades.
I wonder what sort of things I'll end up doing...? Every time I talk to a counselor or an interviewer I light up with ideas and list a thousand things that interest me, but I can never seem to focus on one. I don't know if I could be successful. Counselors and such love to tell me that; "You're bright and engaging! You've got serious potential and I'm sure you will succeed wherever you go." But I think they are paid to say that. After all, did I succeed in Business? Did I succeed at Greif?
I am not sick with doubt for the future, but I wonder. So many of my actions the last few days have been geared towards the future and what it will someday become. I filed for a passport this weekend, got a new driver's license, researched cars, got ready to re-work my schedule if I get this internship... and soon I will be going abroad, so I've been applying and working on that as well. Me receiving a laptop was done with my future in mind far more than the present, as is my dad's suggestion that I subscribe to Wired or otherwise monitor technological trends that will impact my field. As I told Arn, am I ready for that...? Am I really the kind of woman who is savvy at... anything? o.o
Che, but I really must study now. Life's coming at me fast!
I wonder what sort of things I'll end up doing...? Every time I talk to a counselor or an interviewer I light up with ideas and list a thousand things that interest me, but I can never seem to focus on one. I don't know if I could be successful. Counselors and such love to tell me that; "You're bright and engaging! You've got serious potential and I'm sure you will succeed wherever you go." But I think they are paid to say that. After all, did I succeed in Business? Did I succeed at Greif?
I am not sick with doubt for the future, but I wonder. So many of my actions the last few days have been geared towards the future and what it will someday become. I filed for a passport this weekend, got a new driver's license, researched cars, got ready to re-work my schedule if I get this internship... and soon I will be going abroad, so I've been applying and working on that as well. Me receiving a laptop was done with my future in mind far more than the present, as is my dad's suggestion that I subscribe to Wired or otherwise monitor technological trends that will impact my field. As I told Arn, am I ready for that...? Am I really the kind of woman who is savvy at... anything? o.o
Che, but I really must study now. Life's coming at me fast!