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Life lately has been interesting. I wake each morning to thumping and bumping from above as the roof-men execute their work. They are foul-mouthed and talkative, heavy and noisy; I cannot fathom how our house has not fallen down yet with all the abuse it is taking from above. My window is rattling as I type this.
The weather continues to be wonderfully beautiful, giving the things I do a surreal edge. It's odd when the weather does not match my mood, odd that I am not full of breathless joy as should be during such a glorious day. Oh, I am certainly hangin' in there and aware of how wonderful and radiant it is... but it isn't quite reaching that special place inside of me. That part of my stomach or my heart or whatever that registers giddiness is just not working. I also still cannot believe how quickly everything put on the bright green and blue robes of summer...
I have been thinking about summer a lot lately. Right now, it looks like I'm returning to Greif. This is excellent as far as scheduling, personal leverage, High Banks, etc, but it is also inevitably depressing because I did not want to have to go back there anymore. *sighs* I don't like to break upward trends. Every second of every day I kick myself for losing that woman at Nationwide's number; I was almost certain I had that in the bag, but I lost her information and I can't follow through. I don't even have a name to try to go stalker on. My dad makes me feel terrible for this every little chance he gets, and he is completely justified -- it is not like me to drop the ball this way.
That is the only down-side I see to summer currently, however. The rest is bright. I am very excited to have Weifei Zheng and the Moga back. We have been talked excitedly about getting a grill (or at least I have been and everybody else is nodding), and the thought of steak and watermelon and ice-cream sandwiches is immensely appealling. Yay for cook-outs! I really do want to have a few legitimate parties this summer. I also want to get over feeling guilty for asking and take advantage of how many of our friends have access to pools or hot-tubs -- swimming is good. I am debating getting an RPAC pass so that I can still work out during the summer.
It will be good to have time to read, hike, worship, and otherwise relax a bit more in the summer. I know it always winds up seeming like I have a lot less time then than I do now, but I feel like I can make things work this summer and not get so out of sorts. Last summer I was overwhelmed and gave up -- this summer I will know what to expect. I will also not be lonely this summer, as there will be plenty of others afoot. I am closer to campus and Weifei'll be taking classes and giving me excuses to go out there, plus I have a wide-screen monitor that I can lure people over to watch movies some with. I just wish I could work somewhere where I meet new people instead of being one of two random ignored interns... *sighs* Oh well, I'm sure things will turn out fine.
I'm not going to ramble anymore here, though... Charlie's coming over and I need to load the program.
The weather continues to be wonderfully beautiful, giving the things I do a surreal edge. It's odd when the weather does not match my mood, odd that I am not full of breathless joy as should be during such a glorious day. Oh, I am certainly hangin' in there and aware of how wonderful and radiant it is... but it isn't quite reaching that special place inside of me. That part of my stomach or my heart or whatever that registers giddiness is just not working. I also still cannot believe how quickly everything put on the bright green and blue robes of summer...
I have been thinking about summer a lot lately. Right now, it looks like I'm returning to Greif. This is excellent as far as scheduling, personal leverage, High Banks, etc, but it is also inevitably depressing because I did not want to have to go back there anymore. *sighs* I don't like to break upward trends. Every second of every day I kick myself for losing that woman at Nationwide's number; I was almost certain I had that in the bag, but I lost her information and I can't follow through. I don't even have a name to try to go stalker on. My dad makes me feel terrible for this every little chance he gets, and he is completely justified -- it is not like me to drop the ball this way.
That is the only down-side I see to summer currently, however. The rest is bright. I am very excited to have Weifei Zheng and the Moga back. We have been talked excitedly about getting a grill (or at least I have been and everybody else is nodding), and the thought of steak and watermelon and ice-cream sandwiches is immensely appealling. Yay for cook-outs! I really do want to have a few legitimate parties this summer. I also want to get over feeling guilty for asking and take advantage of how many of our friends have access to pools or hot-tubs -- swimming is good. I am debating getting an RPAC pass so that I can still work out during the summer.
It will be good to have time to read, hike, worship, and otherwise relax a bit more in the summer. I know it always winds up seeming like I have a lot less time then than I do now, but I feel like I can make things work this summer and not get so out of sorts. Last summer I was overwhelmed and gave up -- this summer I will know what to expect. I will also not be lonely this summer, as there will be plenty of others afoot. I am closer to campus and Weifei'll be taking classes and giving me excuses to go out there, plus I have a wide-screen monitor that I can lure people over to watch movies some with. I just wish I could work somewhere where I meet new people instead of being one of two random ignored interns... *sighs* Oh well, I'm sure things will turn out fine.
I'm not going to ramble anymore here, though... Charlie's coming over and I need to load the program.