BOYS are on my mind..XD
So this weekend was sort of amazing. My friend's dad had his birthday, and all his friends, including my parents, held a surprise party for him. So while the parents were talking once the party started, me and a couple friends go upstairs to talk.
So it was one of those pointless conversations where you laugh and talk and just have fun. The holiday cheer is catching on. :D
Now fandom is fun, but real life when it's like this, is cool too. So started thinking-a few years from now, when I'm not involved with the A:TLA fandom anymore, what will I be doing? I figured things wouldn't be different from what they are now.
But when we talked about girly stuff like our ideal guys I wondered-should I be dating, or not. I'm gonna be fifteen next October. DX But people are already kissing and, I've been on casual dates-but I suddenly have this weird curiosity. What's it like to love-or even just like-someone anyway?
I usually don't give a crap. Dating? SHouldn't I be my own person for a few years first? Also, it also seems so mushy and annoying.
I'm being weird, thinking about this. But I'm thinking, that maybe I shouldn't blow off every guy I get set up with? And I shouldn't refuse everytime someone asks me out? Maybe I should be a bit more out there?
Jeez. It's so complicated.
And what if-there really isn't any such thing as a soulmate? And love is just physical attraction you feel towards a nice guy? I don't like the sound of that. But who does?
I don't have a type. My friends talk about how they want certain qualities in a guy. I don't know what I want. I mean, I know what I LIKE but I don't know what I want. I want someone whose looks won't matter to me, actually.
I want a guy, who could become totally disfigured, but I'd still like him. And if I were disfigured, it wouldn't matter to him either.
Does a guy like that exist? Does anyone like that exist?
Shit. I'm rambling.