She says she would love to come help but...
...the sea would electrocute us all
Lastnight something came over me,
possibly the fact it was a full moon.
I don't know what was happening.
it consisted of:
red teeshirts(which were worn incidentally)
cigarettes
liquor
a cute purple poodle who is now named(winnie cooper)
3 games of pool
my cousin accusing two people of doing "drugs" and starting a huge fight
me, getting caught in the middle.
getting really loaded.
sitting in my car listening to random radiohead songs
filling me with too many emotions with her sitting right next to me. on track 4. over and over.
and she started talking...
i'm in halves.
one believes her, that which she was saying was truth,
and the other only believes it was the liquor talking and giving her ego a boost.
and then...
i don't know what happened after that...
insanity..
it was nice(dream). beautiful like it used to be.. while she was in my arms, a question arose
"what is it that you miss the most?"
she replied:"feeling safe, you make me feel safe." and suddenly it just faded from me..that feeling that was always there...
I was always security. a crutch. a blanket.
i didn't stay...i left.
or rather i fled. something i do rather quite well.
i wasn't beeming with joy because someone i loved was crying on their knees/
i was more or less just indifferent. in halves/
but i chose to put myself together and make a right choice regarding something that would've just broken my heart all over again.
::She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run
It wears her out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out
If I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted all the time::
too many apologies lastnight and this morning...
Lastnight something came over me,
possibly the fact it was a full moon.
I don't know what was happening.
it consisted of:
red teeshirts(which were worn incidentally)
cigarettes
liquor
a cute purple poodle who is now named(winnie cooper)
3 games of pool
my cousin accusing two people of doing "drugs" and starting a huge fight
me, getting caught in the middle.
getting really loaded.
sitting in my car listening to random radiohead songs
filling me with too many emotions with her sitting right next to me. on track 4. over and over.
and she started talking...
i'm in halves.
one believes her, that which she was saying was truth,
and the other only believes it was the liquor talking and giving her ego a boost.
and then...
i don't know what happened after that...
insanity..
it was nice(dream). beautiful like it used to be.. while she was in my arms, a question arose
"what is it that you miss the most?"
she replied:"feeling safe, you make me feel safe." and suddenly it just faded from me..that feeling that was always there...
I was always security. a crutch. a blanket.
i didn't stay...i left.
or rather i fled. something i do rather quite well.
i wasn't beeming with joy because someone i loved was crying on their knees/
i was more or less just indifferent. in halves/
but i chose to put myself together and make a right choice regarding something that would've just broken my heart all over again.
::She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run
It wears her out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out
If I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted all the time::
too many apologies lastnight and this morning...