high school
today i went back to visit lowell for the very first time since graduation. it felt so strange, like, it was pulling me in. i missed the way the halls smell, the smell of chalk, of pencils, erasers, and the piano room. theres just something about the dust that makes it that way. gosh i miss the way things smell.
i almost didnt go, but it felt good to be there, actually, like, this is where i belonged for 4 years. i remember the first day of school there, scary and awful because of all the bad things we had heard about lowell, and the suicide rate. and now, when i've left, i just feel like i want to go back. strange though, rightt? because i hated that place and it drove me crazy and into many sleepless all-nighters and crying over tests that i had failed.
its weird. lowell has actually done a lot for me. i wouldnt be who i am today without it slowly crushing my soul during my teen years. its taught me a lot about life and work ethic.
anyway, i hope whoever reads my blog (im assuming most people dont, its quite boring and you probably have better things to do than sit around and hear me complain)doesnt think im a lunatic or something. im just not a frilly, lacey rainbows girl. i like upfront-ness and honesty, and bluntness, even if it hurts sometimes. a little honesty is always good, right? i actually miss chamber choir. =(
i almost didnt go, but it felt good to be there, actually, like, this is where i belonged for 4 years. i remember the first day of school there, scary and awful because of all the bad things we had heard about lowell, and the suicide rate. and now, when i've left, i just feel like i want to go back. strange though, rightt? because i hated that place and it drove me crazy and into many sleepless all-nighters and crying over tests that i had failed.
its weird. lowell has actually done a lot for me. i wouldnt be who i am today without it slowly crushing my soul during my teen years. its taught me a lot about life and work ethic.
anyway, i hope whoever reads my blog (im assuming most people dont, its quite boring and you probably have better things to do than sit around and hear me complain)doesnt think im a lunatic or something. im just not a frilly, lacey rainbows girl. i like upfront-ness and honesty, and bluntness, even if it hurts sometimes. a little honesty is always good, right? i actually miss chamber choir. =(