closure
Laurel and I have talked and reached closure. She sounds like she is really happy now, finding her place... doing things she really enjoys, etc. I am happy that we were able to find a closing point, but I am still sad. I feel like... well... i dunno... something is not settling well with me right now. I do not know what exactly. I hope she knows that she is still very dear to me. I don't know... I can't keep on with regrets and beating myself up. It will tear me apart. (and just in case anybody is wondering, while yes, this does sound really depressing, i'm not anything close to suicidal... just in case anybody was thinkin that) I have been through much worse, many times. I'll be okay.