blah blah blah
Call it the blahs.....call it boredom... call it feeling lonely... what ever you call it I have it.. I mean I have friends but because I build walls to protect myself I don't have very many and I don't want to lose the ones that I have because of these damn walls but on the same thought I don't want to let my guard down because every freaking time I have I get hurt or conned..
If I come across as negative or bitchy that is not who I am at all I actually just don't don't want to get hurt again. The last time was almost too much to bear because I completely trusted this person with not only my confidences but my heart and they were just using me to get what they wanted and when they got it I got tossed aside like yesterday's news.
I have finally found what I am good at and what I want to do with the rest of my life(Sports Broadcasting) and just tonight realized how truely lonely I am. Because I have no one to share it with my family knows and are supportive of it in their own backwards way and my friends that I am close to work with me so that's nothing new to them. It would be really nice to be able to come home to someone and say "guess what honey?? and how was your day?"
So what's my point?
1)well I want to start dating but have no one here that I can trust or would want to date or haven't dated at some point because I was a freak magnet but now I don't seem to attract anything except racers which is cool because we share a common intrest but nothing ever comes of it.
2)just to vent some frustrations because I really feel invisible right now...
comment if you want.....
If I come across as negative or bitchy that is not who I am at all I actually just don't don't want to get hurt again. The last time was almost too much to bear because I completely trusted this person with not only my confidences but my heart and they were just using me to get what they wanted and when they got it I got tossed aside like yesterday's news.
I have finally found what I am good at and what I want to do with the rest of my life(Sports Broadcasting) and just tonight realized how truely lonely I am. Because I have no one to share it with my family knows and are supportive of it in their own backwards way and my friends that I am close to work with me so that's nothing new to them. It would be really nice to be able to come home to someone and say "guess what honey?? and how was your day?"
So what's my point?
1)well I want to start dating but have no one here that I can trust or would want to date or haven't dated at some point because I was a freak magnet but now I don't seem to attract anything except racers which is cool because we share a common intrest but nothing ever comes of it.
2)just to vent some frustrations because I really feel invisible right now...
comment if you want.....