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wow..life is just ironic. it is just crazy i have been separated form randy for one year on the fifth of this month...it seems like it has been so much longer because i feel like i have changed so much. i remember the scared repressed girl that i was and it just makes me so grateful that i got out when i did. now i am about to have my first child and things have been really hard lately. i mean dont get me wrong things are good they are just hard. i feel like every day is just so hard anymore because i have not dealt with many of my issues. its as if i cannot move past the same feelings that have haunted me. i pray that God will bring me healing in my life. i have so much to look forward to i cannot let this hold me back. there are just to many decisions to make and so many steps to take how will i know that i have the strength to do it. people have come and gone many of which i thought would be people that would stand by me till the end. i realize that i havent always been perfect..ok lets make that i have never been perfect lol but do you ever stop and think about how many people you have lost or dont keep in contact with? pretty much everybody that is on this dumb online journal. o well..life will go on and time just keeps on going by no matter what i do.