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[singforaugust]

Like a hunger that must be fed
We lay like leaves that have fallen
Arms outstretched reaching
grasping the empty air
for anything to satisfy our thirsts

But we are rather lifeless
We are carried away only with the
changing winds
That will forever alter us

They will tear us apart
and rebuild us with new seeds
and new life will sprout

But to no avail

Again we will fall
This inevitable pattern
will leave us empty handed again and again

We shall not expect too much
All feeling pouring out
but into what
what am I losing to

alone
alone
alone

at last

and feels like forever
because I forgot what I was searching for

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I went to see Star Wars today
In my own pathetic acknowledgment
I feel abandoned
I went to see it with my younger brother
I promised to take him
and that promise I have kept
but I'm digging myself deeper into this whole
and it doesn't look like dirt
I can't figure out what this mess is made out of
And no one means enough to save me
keeping the doors closed and the curtains pulled
I don't want anyone peering in
not just anyone

My hope is dying
even though I try continuously to save it
No matter how hard I try to disguise it
Just keeps coming back
I thought I was better cured even
But it never leaves