Jun 03, 2006 18:49
Right now I feel like a very big part of my life and personality is missing. I usually work every summer at a girl scout camp up in the mountians. This year I am unable to go because I am transferring schools and need to find a real job in long beach as well as a place to live and register for my new school stuff. At first I was like ok no camp yeah its sad but its no big deal i can still have fun this summer at home. But then my friend Repeat from camp sent me a video of last year and it just kinda hit me that Im not going to see those people really ever again some of the most amazing people i have ever known and I let them slip out of my life. Without camp i feel like I have a giant hole in my life and that there is nothing i can do to fill it. I am also scared of moving away from everything i have known for the past 21 years and going to a new school and finally being on my own but a wise friend of mine keeps reminding me that if you dont have the guts to change things then you'll never get any where in the world. So i soldier on a head and pray I dont fall flat on my face.