Oh dear.

[singergoneactor]

So I had an emotional revelation this morning.  And Uncle Wannie would just like you all to know that this revelation has shown him one thing and one thing only...

That he is so screwed.

*shakes head* I should know better than to do what I did.  And I really do.  But I went off and did it anyway and screwed myself over.  A lot. Stupid stupid me.

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[barelybilingual]

Wannie. Wannie.

Are you talking about what I think you're talking about? Because if you are, it's okay. Really. We can all work it out somehow.

[singergoneactor]

Yeah, I'm talking about what you think I'm talking about. Dammit. I fell in love. Dammit. Ugh, and no, we can't just work it all out. You don't get it.

What the hell was I thinking? He's way too good for me and--and he's got a wonderful person who's way better than me and, just--just--just dammit.

[barelybilingual]

Wannie, calm down. Seriously, we'll figure something out.

*hugs* And that's not true. You're a great person and you deserve someone just as much as anyone else.

[singergoneactor]

Figure what out, Hankyung? I'm not about to go and try to bust up a relationship because I have feelings for the guy. I'm going to just keep to myself and maybe avoid him for a while.

*hits self in head* Man, why can't we all just find true love like you and Donghae?

[barelybilingual]

I'm not telling you to do that. But avoiding him is definitely not the way to go. What will you accomplish by doing that? Don't you enjoy his company and being his friend?

And hey. *pats your head* We all have to work a little to find love. Me and Hae didn't find each other right away and we had trials we had to deal with before we did. You'll be fine in the end, trust me.

[singergoneactor]

*sighs* in the end, it just all boils down to the fact that I don't want to be a homewrecker, you know? I love being just his friend! He's funny and smart and adorable and he listens to what I say and gives me his own perosnal thoughts on whatever it is we're talking about and...

And this is why I have to avoid him. Because I fall deeper in love with him every time I talk to him.

[barelybilingual]

*sighs* Dongwan...

Okay, I'll pray that everything works out for you. I would prefer it if you didn't decide to just avoid him, though.

And I really think it'll work out in the end somehow. I don't know what the end outcome will be, but...hopefully you'll all be okay.

[coastlands]

Aww.. Dongwan. Love is never simple. It's such a complicated thing. But, if you really love someone you should at least take the time to get to know them better. The worst thing that can happen is that you can become really good friends. It may hurt like a witch to love your best friend, but sometimes it's better than nothing.

PLUS, he's not way too good for you. You are a wonderful person. Hannie has shared quite a bit with me about you. I'm sorry that you have to be hurting. I really hope that something works out for you.

[singergoneactor]

...You're right. I think what both of you are saying is finally getting through to me, now that I've calmed down. It can't hurt to talk to him and get to know him. I'm just really afraid that...that if things between him and his boyfriend don't work out...if they break up for any reason, I'll feel guilty, like I somehow contributed to that. I know, I'm just being paranoid.

Thanks Hae. I think I have the best dongsaengs ever.

[coastlands]

Good, I'm glad that you've calmed a bit. Thinking is painful, but often provides solutions. Just take things one day at a time. XD

[singergoneactor]

Okay, I'l take your advice. One day at a time...

Oh, and if Hannie wakes up, tell him I said sorry. I feel like I've said hurtful things to him when he was only trying to help. He, unfortunately for him, got to me first when I was really upset. I wasn't nice at all and he just sat with me and kept going, kept talking.

[coastlands]

Okay, I'll be sure to tell him. I'm sure he knows that you didn't mean anything. He's pretty good about that. He's got this amazing heart... and compassion for people... >_< Okay, I'll stop now.. XD

[singergoneactor]

*laughs* You two are really something else.

*nods wisely* I give this relationship my blessings. Make sure invite me to the wedding and to grant me godfathership over your firstborn~

[coastlands]

We are..competely something ELSE! *laughs*

Good. I'm so glad you approve. *laughs harder* Okay, you get the first invite...and I'll have to talk over the firstborn part with Hannie first.

[singergoneactor]

*shakes head at you* Crazies, that's what you both are.

Alright, first invite! And I'm sure he'll agree. once he sees things my way mwa ha ha ha.

Oh, and your boyfriend's freaking out on Heechul's recent entry. Please come calm him down.

[singergoneactor]

Never mind, the case of the hysterically crying boyfriend has been fixed.