songs of my life
ME: Dark blue (jacks mannequin)/ Heart on my seleve (idina menzel)/ chirstmas lullaby (songs for a new world: andrea burns)/ grey street ( dave matthews)
My Boy friend-Devin: You're still you (josh groban)
me and devin: You and me (life house)
My best friend-Joaquin: Crash and Burn (savage garden)/ chariot (gavin degraw)
My best girl friend-Jen: Gotta have faith (george michael)/ Just a girl (no doubt) Hand in my pocket ( Alanis moressette)
My best gal at SMU-Molly: when it goes down (relient k)/ cavanough park (something corporate)
For thoes I miss: Promise (tracey chapman)/ Miles apart (Yellow card)
For the memories of summer: Swing life away (rise against)
some one i miss and love: girl friend (Eve 6)
My sister-Emily: saints and sailors (dashboard confessional)
My friend Mike: 3am (acoustic matchbox 20)
My friend pete: scotty doesnt know
my frist Wa firnd (Korey): Warning (incubus)
My musical: Into the woods/ Wicked/ Songs for a new world
My best guy friend at SMU (Matt): No such thing (john mayer)/ I got you babe (sunny and cher)
My first new theatre friend (christian): I wont dance ( frank sinatra)
For my passion: Climbing up hill (the Last 5 years)
My outlook on life: Meaning (gavin degraw)
My ex: Running away (hoobastank)
For anyone that hates me: Beautiful oblivion (Eve 6)/ shut up (simple plan)
My good friend-Angie: brightest (copeland)
For the class of 2005: Aint no mountain high enough
for my group of friends back home: elenore (low millions)/ misunderstood ( better than ezra)
ok so i never really post any more, but does any body read this?--comment if you do....btw
angie---if you read this....call me! i miss you immensely--im still stage managing a show and its crazy and only you and sterling understand....i love you! we MUST needs talk---you and jen are like one of the few girls back home I can actually hang with (especially as my sister has disowned me...ill talk to you about it later...but its gotten really serious this time...) any one else curious to hear just as...but for now...ill write..
Why do you continue to do this?
You hurt inside,
there is something in life that you arent exactly content with,
and you dont know what it is
and so you continue to tear down any thing stable in your life
you decide to judge others so that you wont feel judged
you playfully lean on the good sides of people
so that they wont notice how convienently you are hurting others
you smile, not to be kind
but to withold a smile from some one else
you think you understand
and you are never wrong
but you continue to fuck over
any and ever one that could EVER help you with your problems
you have cut of close ones, and hurt even closer ones
and you expect the world change in a heart beat so that
all the wrongs you have committed wont matter
There is something going on
that you dont want to see
and so you continue to blame the world
for the dissonance in your life
funny
you drink
and tell me to grow up
you have problems
and i am content
you want me to stop being a bitch
when the last thing I said to you
was that i loved you
and that it was worth it
you pretend like i have lost all my connections
but they are firm while you destroy yours
You hate me
and I love you
yeah its shitty
if I could stop I would
but I cant
but now that I have nothing to loose
Im not going with out a fight
you can continue to hurt me
I really dont care
but if you even touch thoes that I love
be prepared for a fight
Its a worthy enough cause
and there is nothing you can do to me
that you havent already done.
And maybe someday you will see what you have done
you will realized who you have pushed away
and what you have lost
and expect everything to just fall into place
but it wont
not right away at least
I will be miles away
and it wont be easy
it may take years after you
have even figured it out
for anything to get better
but I will never stop loving
I cant
and so I sit
restless
untill I can face
that confrontation.
My Boy friend-Devin: You're still you (josh groban)
me and devin: You and me (life house)
My best friend-Joaquin: Crash and Burn (savage garden)/ chariot (gavin degraw)
My best girl friend-Jen: Gotta have faith (george michael)/ Just a girl (no doubt) Hand in my pocket ( Alanis moressette)
My best gal at SMU-Molly: when it goes down (relient k)/ cavanough park (something corporate)
For thoes I miss: Promise (tracey chapman)/ Miles apart (Yellow card)
For the memories of summer: Swing life away (rise against)
some one i miss and love: girl friend (Eve 6)
My sister-Emily: saints and sailors (dashboard confessional)
My friend Mike: 3am (acoustic matchbox 20)
My friend pete: scotty doesnt know
my frist Wa firnd (Korey): Warning (incubus)
My musical: Into the woods/ Wicked/ Songs for a new world
My best guy friend at SMU (Matt): No such thing (john mayer)/ I got you babe (sunny and cher)
My first new theatre friend (christian): I wont dance ( frank sinatra)
For my passion: Climbing up hill (the Last 5 years)
My outlook on life: Meaning (gavin degraw)
My ex: Running away (hoobastank)
For anyone that hates me: Beautiful oblivion (Eve 6)/ shut up (simple plan)
My good friend-Angie: brightest (copeland)
For the class of 2005: Aint no mountain high enough
for my group of friends back home: elenore (low millions)/ misunderstood ( better than ezra)
ok so i never really post any more, but does any body read this?--comment if you do....btw
angie---if you read this....call me! i miss you immensely--im still stage managing a show and its crazy and only you and sterling understand....i love you! we MUST needs talk---you and jen are like one of the few girls back home I can actually hang with (especially as my sister has disowned me...ill talk to you about it later...but its gotten really serious this time...) any one else curious to hear just as...but for now...ill write..
Why do you continue to do this?
You hurt inside,
there is something in life that you arent exactly content with,
and you dont know what it is
and so you continue to tear down any thing stable in your life
you decide to judge others so that you wont feel judged
you playfully lean on the good sides of people
so that they wont notice how convienently you are hurting others
you smile, not to be kind
but to withold a smile from some one else
you think you understand
and you are never wrong
but you continue to fuck over
any and ever one that could EVER help you with your problems
you have cut of close ones, and hurt even closer ones
and you expect the world change in a heart beat so that
all the wrongs you have committed wont matter
There is something going on
that you dont want to see
and so you continue to blame the world
for the dissonance in your life
funny
you drink
and tell me to grow up
you have problems
and i am content
you want me to stop being a bitch
when the last thing I said to you
was that i loved you
and that it was worth it
you pretend like i have lost all my connections
but they are firm while you destroy yours
You hate me
and I love you
yeah its shitty
if I could stop I would
but I cant
but now that I have nothing to loose
Im not going with out a fight
you can continue to hurt me
I really dont care
but if you even touch thoes that I love
be prepared for a fight
Its a worthy enough cause
and there is nothing you can do to me
that you havent already done.
And maybe someday you will see what you have done
you will realized who you have pushed away
and what you have lost
and expect everything to just fall into place
but it wont
not right away at least
I will be miles away
and it wont be easy
it may take years after you
have even figured it out
for anything to get better
but I will never stop loving
I cant
and so I sit
restless
untill I can face
that confrontation.