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i was so happy coming back from steubenville east, it got me so close to the lord, my priorities got back in line, the things that weren't really important fell away, but it's so hard to keep it going when everything at home is still the same craziness. i really want to go to franciscan university again, and i feel like i will get there, but i swear if i'm told one more time that going to college in danbury is fine, i'm going to slap someone. cause it's not fine, it's not worth working myself to death every single day for my whole academic career. my life will be exactly the same, except all of my friends will be gone. my mom's freaking out about everything, she's so stressed that it's making her sick and i can't take it. i'm trying so hard to be a better person but it's hard when stuff at home is like this. i'm so worried about my drivers test i'm literally nauseuous just thinking about it. i quite possibly might die today after driving to the bank on federal road, the bane of my existence. i owe sara $20 and my mom $11. i have no money. and i can't leave the house until i clean my room. i almost finished the king must die but it's due today so i'm just going to have to pay the fine. i wish you could renew 14 day books. but i have no money so i don't want to pay the fine. :( everything's fine. yesterday was my brother's birthday. i got him soul calibur II for PS2 and i think he likes it. my grandparents want to take us on a cruise. i'm fine. talk to everyone later. bye.