life moves faster than anyone will ever be able to comprehend...

[singalazysong]

Step back. Think. How did I get here.  Hateful feelings drag me down.  Trying to step back and breathe but so many things are running through my mind at inconsistant speeds and I am more lost than anyone will ever know.  I gave myself to him.  Everything that I had.  The whole world.  Shattered and broken. Torn apart by words that were said.  I want to just move on. It's so much harder than people make it out to be.  I try to be happy the weight is being lost by the second.  Food sickens me.  Nights end at the most ridiculous hours.  Meditation makes me go crazy.  Nirvana is unreachable right now.  Stress and frustration overcomes my entire body. People can try to relate but no one will ever know what we were like behind closed doors.  He doesn't believe that I am his soul mate.  Lies, cheating, anger all came out too fastly. I am annoyed. I can't stand school. I'm ready to leave.  I'm not looking forward to anything. He says he doesn't love me anymore but I really beg to differ if people could just see what we were like when it is just the two of us they would know that there is so much more than love. Above & Beyond.  If people could leave judgement at the doorstep because there is so much more to life than silly school dances and unreliable highschool friendships. Get over youself.  Knowledge based on lies.  breathe.  sit, still, stop.  make sure you know who you are before you go telling people to know themselves.  advice is based on knowledge of the advice you are giving. We are all humans. living.

My cousin came into town & so did photographs of the memories...


 Lover.     


 Shawntell & Me. You can tell she is from AZ.


 Big Fish. Pike Place. First time for my cousin!    
  My asian nana and cousy.


  Asian tourists! I love my japanese family.


  cute face. fatso.