Church anyone?
Today...we went to church. I don't even know the name of the church, but I loved it. I love my little family. I felt as if I was going to church with all of my sisters, and my...little brother...Evan. But...anyway...I enjoyed the service. We sat there singing...listening...laughing...absorbing...spacing...whatever came to us. But, you knoe? I loved it. I felt so close to God. I enjoyed the sermon. I felt so empowered as the music minister conducted the church with a look of pure joy on his face. I thoroughly enjoyed it.
Later I was talking to my big brother Thomas. He was casually talking to me when he looked at me and said, "You know...I love you...but you need to go." At first I took tremendous offense to this, but gave him time for an explanation. "Melissa you don't belong here," he conitinued. "You belong at Belmont in Nashville." I quickly agreed and then surrendered my fears to Botit. I told him how much I already am so attached and completely in love with this place. I think...actually know that its the people. You make my life livable...you give me something to look forward to each day. I also have developed my own little routine, grown accostomed to the hotel like scent of Davis hall, and have found the need to call this place home. I know in my heart that this place is safe. But sometimes...life is mostly lived when you step out of your boundaries...when you surpass your limits. I know...not to be cocky...that I have the talent to do it.I could be up there one day. But that means that I need to go. I will struggle with this for the next two years...cuz that is how long I am planning on staying. But I know that time will lead me to Nashville. Dang it...why do people always get in the way. No offense ladies.When I needed to go to Tennessee for the sake of my own dreams the first time...I was completely in love with somebody who would later break my heart. Now I have all of you. What's a girl to do? But I know that you all will be there for me in the end. I know that our friendships will stand the test of time. And that I am extremely thankful for. I would never change a thing. My life is better for knowing all of you. But I am completely attached to all of you. I don't ever want to part. But Thomas assured me that he would always bring you all to me. I really need to do this. Now may God grant me the strength to leave. But I really shouldn't focus on this issue until two years from now. You never know what the cards hold for you. But just a fair warning in advance...I will struggle with this decision for the next two years of my college career. But in time the questions are always answered.
Later I was talking to my big brother Thomas. He was casually talking to me when he looked at me and said, "You know...I love you...but you need to go." At first I took tremendous offense to this, but gave him time for an explanation. "Melissa you don't belong here," he conitinued. "You belong at Belmont in Nashville." I quickly agreed and then surrendered my fears to Botit. I told him how much I already am so attached and completely in love with this place. I think...actually know that its the people. You make my life livable...you give me something to look forward to each day. I also have developed my own little routine, grown accostomed to the hotel like scent of Davis hall, and have found the need to call this place home. I know in my heart that this place is safe. But sometimes...life is mostly lived when you step out of your boundaries...when you surpass your limits. I know...not to be cocky...that I have the talent to do it.I could be up there one day. But that means that I need to go. I will struggle with this for the next two years...cuz that is how long I am planning on staying. But I know that time will lead me to Nashville. Dang it...why do people always get in the way. No offense ladies.When I needed to go to Tennessee for the sake of my own dreams the first time...I was completely in love with somebody who would later break my heart. Now I have all of you. What's a girl to do? But I know that you all will be there for me in the end. I know that our friendships will stand the test of time. And that I am extremely thankful for. I would never change a thing. My life is better for knowing all of you. But I am completely attached to all of you. I don't ever want to part. But Thomas assured me that he would always bring you all to me. I really need to do this. Now may God grant me the strength to leave. But I really shouldn't focus on this issue until two years from now. You never know what the cards hold for you. But just a fair warning in advance...I will struggle with this decision for the next two years of my college career. But in time the questions are always answered.