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so heres the truth:
you were right all along
they were never my friends & i was living a lie.
but i wont fall for it next time.
you figured me out, like a leaf in the wind
i try to find out who i am, but wind up lost in the end
sometimes. its hard to know whats real when youre not.
cause you know i change myself to impress whoever happens to be next to me
but im sick of trying so hard
waste all your time with me
i know im a mess right now
dont give up, believe.
id wait it out for you.
ive realized i give a lot ofpeople[that dont deserve it] the benefit of the doubt
far too often. well, i have learned my lesson.
you will not get the best of me.
yesterday was major bonding with myrachel<3.
she is fun. && we are having a slumber party.
its going to be so cute. sabby [ ;) ], you are coming.<3.
upon re-evaluation of my list. here is an update of my top 5 bands to see that i have yet to before.
1. the good life/cursive (so soon)
2. bush.
3. the cranberries.
4. elton john.
5. the police.
6.(its my top 5, i can make 6) the wallflowers. (SO soon)
whats yer top5 nigs?
yes. yesterday was nice.
john got a new car which is so awesome b.c now i can be with him without
worrying about how hes going to get anywhere
or me driving him to and from nado every time.
ive been seeing a lot more of him lately. he has been following through with promises he makes to me
&& calls me on a regular basis. im trying to not get used to it, but in a way, its nice to have him back in my life.
sometimes i miss him more than he knows. & i think with vince moving home from UOP, && mikey and i hanging out more
this summer is going to be really good times. I cant say how happpy i am that the boys love justin and get along with him so
well. Its nice b.c he had big shoes to fill && i think he is doing wonderfuly. and it really tickles my pickle seeing my old friends
&& new love really hit it off. now i just need a couple girlfriends. but rachel && i are gunna work on that
for the both of us.<3.
my stomach aches have been sporadically coming back.
its somewhat frustrating, but its definatley not as bad as before.
&& im going to talk to my doctor about something small that will supress them a little bit
i could use a major overdose of rachelorjustin right about now.
im kind of annoyed with some people, but i dont even care right now b.c
things have been great the last month or so. && my life is just swell.
no REAL complaints if i think about it.
justin. he surprises me more & more everyday. i didnt know anyone could make me laugh
like he does. && his good spirit always lightens my dark situations. he is something positive i have been
lacking for a long time. and more lately then ever, everytime he is around i feel a joy i havent felt in years.
&& his scruffyness is something i just cant resist. <3.
i think im done being a fag for now.
i swear, pictures later.
john tonight.
things are cool w. me.
peace sign.