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It's been awhile. My life has changed since the last time I wrote so I figured I'd share.
Last Sunday night I realized something; I'm sick of being the "chubby girl"- I've been and have always been that girl. Sure my friends say, "you're perfect the way you are," but if that was true, wouldn't I not care about this all? Wouldn't I be able to find a guy that will appreciate me? There's no such thing as perfect but I'd like to be "improved." My mom's friend has been using this website called "sparkpeople" and I decided to try it out. I never thought I'd find something that would work and make me happy but the truth is, it has. In the first week I've not eaten greasy crap foods [like french fries, which have been in my access numerous times], learned I hate the taste of soda- diet too, not intentionally either, I was simply trying to get my 8 cups of water in and tried a sip of soda one day and was disgusted, and most importantly I've lost 5 pounds. Sure it's just a start but I'm not about to stop.
I'll be leaving the people I grew up with, leaving the people that saw me at my finest...
But I'm sick of being THAT girl. I want to go out with a BANG! And I'm prepared to. I want the people in my school to remember me looking good, not like a butterball turkey.
I mean, even since last year, I've dropped 20 lbs.
That was last year right before school ended, student council elections-
Looking at that compared to me now, makes me feel great. + I know I can keep going.
+ In other news, I got into Les Miserables at Bayway Performing Arts Center.
I was so suprised I made it considering I winged it at the auditon. I'm so excited because not only are my friends doing it, but there are so many of the "infamous theatre kids" that I've always wanted to meet doing it as well. Most importantly, it showed me I can get in somewhere other than Shittown Center for the Performing Arts. I'm in the "click" there and they know me but this is somewhere TOTALLY new. I can't wait until Ken calls me to do spotlight for Smokey Joes. Hopefully I'll have a job by then [just put in my app for Starsucks]- I'd love to tell him I can't due to the show and a job. (o:
kourtMonster Q: i keep having dreams about you.
HeMpBoi20: aw
HeMpBoi20: are we doing it
kourtMonster Q: naturally.
HeMpBoi20: sweeet
3 MORE WEEKS TILL MY BOY IS HOME!
That's all for now, I gtg get ready for a spontaneous night with my clan-ies!