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i have been in the strangest mood the past couple of days.
i feel so...anxious. about nothing. i dont feel like i want to be around anyone, yet im really lonely. like, itd be okay if i was around someone where it didnt take any effort. someone who i could just lay my head on their shoulder and just sit with. just be with. but theres not really anyone like that here...so instead i count on alone time. i think im just in a funk.
a lot of it has to do with work. it seems so pointless to me. why did i go to school? why dont i get positions anywhere else? i feel stuck. and i know for a lot of people work is never something they like, but really...this goes beyond that. i feel like what was the point in me going to school if it isnt doing jack shit for me now? its so frustrating.
things could always be worse. i should be thankful for what i have...its just hard to be when youre in a pissy mood. gotta work on that.
talked to lindsey today. i cant wait till she comes and visits at the end of march - that definitely gives me something to look forward to. what would it be like if all the lovers lived close to one another? would it make everything else seem less sucky?
i feel so...anxious. about nothing. i dont feel like i want to be around anyone, yet im really lonely. like, itd be okay if i was around someone where it didnt take any effort. someone who i could just lay my head on their shoulder and just sit with. just be with. but theres not really anyone like that here...so instead i count on alone time. i think im just in a funk.
a lot of it has to do with work. it seems so pointless to me. why did i go to school? why dont i get positions anywhere else? i feel stuck. and i know for a lot of people work is never something they like, but really...this goes beyond that. i feel like what was the point in me going to school if it isnt doing jack shit for me now? its so frustrating.
things could always be worse. i should be thankful for what i have...its just hard to be when youre in a pissy mood. gotta work on that.
talked to lindsey today. i cant wait till she comes and visits at the end of march - that definitely gives me something to look forward to. what would it be like if all the lovers lived close to one another? would it make everything else seem less sucky?