My Bipolar life, a quick update

[sing4th]

Let's see...  where to begin..
Last summer, I was on one heck of a ride.  Too high (not feeling like I needed sleep or food, super chatty and task oriented), then too low (not wanting to leave the house or answer the phone - just stay in pj's and sleep every chance I could through out the day, and all night).  Then, I learned that my bipolar med (

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[sing4th]

Thanks for taking the time to comment. I am finally meeting with my pdoc on monday. Thanks for the recommendation for Abilify. It will be interesting to see what she suggests.

I am on a ride right now. Manic, emotional, oh so fun. Three nights ago, I slept from 4:30 till 9ish. Next night, at about midnight, I took my prescribed sleep aide I keep on hand just for this purpose - and slept till 8:30. Then last night, I really blew it. Well, I don't really regret it though. My husband and I - well, I guess you would call it a fight. He told me he just doesn't feel like he can be himself anymore, and that he enjoys being at work, and hates coming home. The main reason? My lack of housekeeping skills. The tears flowed for a couple of hours, and I decided since I was unable to sleep, I oughta be doing something about the problem. I started washing dishes at 2 a.m., and finally wrapped up my cleaning frenzie at 6:30 a.m. Slept till 9. Today has been hard, of course. Ugh, the up-and-down life, I can handle - at least trudge through - but not having my best friend on my side is more than painful.

Sorry I just spilled my guts on all this to you. I have been feeling like I wanted to share my heartache with someone, but not feeling like I should discuss it with anyone who knows my husband, and could carry a grudge against him long after the issue is resolved.

[eesabella]

You are welcome to spill your guts to me any time you like. I'm sorry that things have been rough for you. But I am happy to hear that you are motivated to get your best friend back! I know when I go through the ups and downs of being bipolar, I tend to put my closest ones at odds with me. Somehow it is comforting to hear that you want him close. I know you will work it out. I'm sure Monday seems like forever away, but I know you can make it and it will all get better once you find the right balance!!

My doctor says that abilify is not good for when you are actually in mania. He actually kept me on depakote for a 6 month period after an episode then weaned me off slowly and onto abilify over an additional 3 months. Just FYI. It was worth it for me (even the 30+ pounds I gained while on depakote), but I know what works for me won't work for everyone.

I am hear for you any time you want to chat here!

Take care,

Lisa