here goes the babbling....blah blah blah
Man, lately, I've just felt so....
Empty
Bored
Slow
Lazy
Unacceptable
well, those descriptions make it sound really bad, and it's not quite as bad as it seems, I'm just really tired of being tired.
I got back into town like a month ago, and I'm still getting checks from the company, which has since shut down because the Navy is a load of shit, so...my logic is this...
If I'm getting a check every 2 weeks for like, $2,300...why should I run out to find another job right away? So for the last month, I've taken up to lovely job of being drunk. Yes, that's my job, and I don't recommend that anyone tries to do this for more than a few weeks, cause I'm so fuckin bored with myself right now I can't stand it. But in the same breath, I'm finacially secure for the time being, well, probably the next few months, if I really didn't want to get another job. But I'm just bored and I NEED something to do everyday!! Besides wake up at 4pm and start to look for a bar. But, during this time, I've made the discovery that Smirnof Twisted IV Watermelon is the newest addition to the nectar of the Gods! Oh baby!!
I dunno, I was driving back to the folk's place last nigth adn got to thinking and I'm upset that I'm not more ahead of myself. I want to put down a downpayment on a house, and get some real estate under my belt, I want to get known in the Graphic Design buisness world, like known so I can make $40 an hour again. I've paid off my car, so I don't have to worry about that..*FUCK YEAH!* I want to cook something really fucking cool...I'm not sure what, but just something neat....that takes more than 4 mins in the microwave to make. Jason was talking about something with Chicken, Pineapples and Portobello mushrooms...maybe we'll have to go shopping sometime soon.
I know all of you are going to come back with the "Laura, your 23, give it some time." But I've always been years ahead of myself, I blame it on hanging out with Steve and Dru when I was 15, where they had the "your cute, but we need to be have 'serious time' now!" I'm glad for it, because it's given me that drive that I want, the need to get things done...except for the last month.
Things that my friends have been doing make me think alot as well...I don't understand them soemtimes. Which I realize has got to sound insane, since I'm noteably the "crazy nonsense sputtering pixie stick girl" (i love you dru!) but, seriously, I can't understand half of the shit they do, or don't do for that matter. I just...I'm at a loss for words at the current moment, but just you wait, cause damnit...it's coming!!
Blah, I've just totally lost whatever else I had I was going to say... I'll be ok, I just need another beer. Hell, I was gonna get a job on friday, it's only tues...I'm still good!
Empty
Bored
Slow
Lazy
Unacceptable
well, those descriptions make it sound really bad, and it's not quite as bad as it seems, I'm just really tired of being tired.
I got back into town like a month ago, and I'm still getting checks from the company, which has since shut down because the Navy is a load of shit, so...my logic is this...
If I'm getting a check every 2 weeks for like, $2,300...why should I run out to find another job right away? So for the last month, I've taken up to lovely job of being drunk. Yes, that's my job, and I don't recommend that anyone tries to do this for more than a few weeks, cause I'm so fuckin bored with myself right now I can't stand it. But in the same breath, I'm finacially secure for the time being, well, probably the next few months, if I really didn't want to get another job. But I'm just bored and I NEED something to do everyday!! Besides wake up at 4pm and start to look for a bar. But, during this time, I've made the discovery that Smirnof Twisted IV Watermelon is the newest addition to the nectar of the Gods! Oh baby!!
I dunno, I was driving back to the folk's place last nigth adn got to thinking and I'm upset that I'm not more ahead of myself. I want to put down a downpayment on a house, and get some real estate under my belt, I want to get known in the Graphic Design buisness world, like known so I can make $40 an hour again. I've paid off my car, so I don't have to worry about that..*FUCK YEAH!* I want to cook something really fucking cool...I'm not sure what, but just something neat....that takes more than 4 mins in the microwave to make. Jason was talking about something with Chicken, Pineapples and Portobello mushrooms...maybe we'll have to go shopping sometime soon.
I know all of you are going to come back with the "Laura, your 23, give it some time." But I've always been years ahead of myself, I blame it on hanging out with Steve and Dru when I was 15, where they had the "your cute, but we need to be have 'serious time' now!" I'm glad for it, because it's given me that drive that I want, the need to get things done...except for the last month.
Things that my friends have been doing make me think alot as well...I don't understand them soemtimes. Which I realize has got to sound insane, since I'm noteably the "crazy nonsense sputtering pixie stick girl" (i love you dru!) but, seriously, I can't understand half of the shit they do, or don't do for that matter. I just...I'm at a loss for words at the current moment, but just you wait, cause damnit...it's coming!!
Blah, I've just totally lost whatever else I had I was going to say... I'll be ok, I just need another beer. Hell, I was gonna get a job on friday, it's only tues...I'm still good!