im dead inside

[sinfullkissesx]

so, i stayed with my mom up north for awhile
we were suppost to have a cook out today
until my brother showed up with his cunt thief nasty girlfriend over
FUCK THAT
i told him if he brings her im leaving and i wasnt kidding
jackie almost beat her to pulp (shes a black belt) but she held herself back
me?
no

i was talking shit to my brother about her
and allof a sudden he fucking charges at me
so i grabbed his shirt ripped it punched him in the head jackie punched in in the face twice hes got a big grapefruit on it now haha
he fucking charged at my mom too
that was the last straw
the neighbors came over to calm us down cause they heard us fighting

mike migght have broke his hand punching something

so, now were all home and pj got to stay up there with his girlfriend

my dad took off for the day all dressed up
and my moms sleeping

great memorial day right??

i reallyreallyreallyreallly want to cut just to feel just to know im alive god its been so long but mike will kill me.

oh yeah,

i did some of an OC and he knew some was missing and fucking pushed me into the wall and i hit my head
i started bawling and told him that means youll hit me again

i dont know
maybe i deserve it

"this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey
you know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things i did
hey
maybe
baby
you could keep me up in bed
my Konstantine
spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen
and i said
did you know i missed you? [x7]
oh god i miss you"