oh ....just... a few thoughts on life, love, and happiness
well, hmm.
i guess id have to say there's nothing i find less attractive than an angry, negative, cocky, immature man. in fact, id rather be a lesbian if that's all there is out there. ive never cheated on any man ive ever been with by the way. never will, the thought disgusts me. i literally and figuratively have bent over backwards for the ones i love. and the funny thing is that in most every relationship ive been in I am the one being cheated on, dumped, and just generally screwed over... and these said people almost always realize they were wrong and try to reconcile the "burnt bridge"... if you will.... but here's the hilarious part... when im not willing to fall back into their arms, heart, and of course their laps--- I am somehow the bad guy! as if its ludicrous that im not immediately back in love and ready to have some sex. and its true- i digress and occasionally reminisce about the times when my ex's weren't fucking me into my own grave and were semi-lovable and respectable people... but its high time i realized that people will never change. I know IVE CHANGED. and i fucking like it, thank you very much. im through dealing with people who fuck me over and then act as if i owe them something, and that its like some huge tragedy for them that im no longer the same person i was years ago. boo hoo. yeah fucking right im not are you serious?! You screw me over, wait a few months, come swooping in, and expect that within that time frame ive just sat around playing with myself to the thought of you?! to you, i say its time you figured out what shit hole you think im going to fill in your life and replace it with something else. i have neither the time, care, or patience to deal with your meager critical bullshit any longer. go cry about something else, its just embarrassing.
i really really really just want to sustain the happiness in my life. i wish the general public wasn't so self-centered AND stupid, all at the same time. meeting people is like voluntarily walking into a black hole, praying you dont get obliterated but rather get spit out on the other side into some other unknown and unchartered galaxy.
(on a lighter note the blackhawks are on a 9 game winning streak and its orgasmic .... playoffs, baby)
i guess id have to say there's nothing i find less attractive than an angry, negative, cocky, immature man. in fact, id rather be a lesbian if that's all there is out there. ive never cheated on any man ive ever been with by the way. never will, the thought disgusts me. i literally and figuratively have bent over backwards for the ones i love. and the funny thing is that in most every relationship ive been in I am the one being cheated on, dumped, and just generally screwed over... and these said people almost always realize they were wrong and try to reconcile the "burnt bridge"... if you will.... but here's the hilarious part... when im not willing to fall back into their arms, heart, and of course their laps--- I am somehow the bad guy! as if its ludicrous that im not immediately back in love and ready to have some sex. and its true- i digress and occasionally reminisce about the times when my ex's weren't fucking me into my own grave and were semi-lovable and respectable people... but its high time i realized that people will never change. I know IVE CHANGED. and i fucking like it, thank you very much. im through dealing with people who fuck me over and then act as if i owe them something, and that its like some huge tragedy for them that im no longer the same person i was years ago. boo hoo. yeah fucking right im not are you serious?! You screw me over, wait a few months, come swooping in, and expect that within that time frame ive just sat around playing with myself to the thought of you?! to you, i say its time you figured out what shit hole you think im going to fill in your life and replace it with something else. i have neither the time, care, or patience to deal with your meager critical bullshit any longer. go cry about something else, its just embarrassing.
i really really really just want to sustain the happiness in my life. i wish the general public wasn't so self-centered AND stupid, all at the same time. meeting people is like voluntarily walking into a black hole, praying you dont get obliterated but rather get spit out on the other side into some other unknown and unchartered galaxy.
(on a lighter note the blackhawks are on a 9 game winning streak and its orgasmic .... playoffs, baby)