well uh-uh baby i ain't got no plan
i forgot that i took this picture. it makes me miss my cousins. and the lake. i won't be going there this summer for the first time since i was five. ghjty68gjdfghj.['=0 but it's obvious that i need a year off. in my own apartment with my own kitchen and my own bed and my own key. it's not even about the apartment itself, it's the idea. the idea that i don't have to tell someone where i'm going, or who i'm bringing over. no compromising why, when, who, what, or how many times questions. but honestly i've never had as much freedom as i do right now. which is why tomorrow night is going to be incredible. operation zebra fiesta. i used to always want to go on adventures. but now that i'm auditioning in chicago and going to africa and traveling europe, i'm intimidated. but it's that it's not just a random college in illinois, it's a college with a bfa program right smack in the heart of chicago. and it's not just a tour through africa, it's teaching and hiking in kenya. and it's not just traveling europe, i'ts experiencing barcelona madrid florence rome milan prague and berlin within 3 weeks. there's just no room for doubt or apprehension. and a year ago i would never have questioned any of it. this year has been alot different. all i know is that when i rock climb, none of it matters. nothing matters. the auto company told me my jeep will be ready in two weeks. i don't know why i chose to wear my seatbelt on monday. but if i hadn't, i probably wouldn't be sitting here writing this.