Not good enough
Today was a great day. I mean I only had one class today and that was over by 9:30 this morning so I had all day to do lets see mmmmmmmmmmmm NOTHING. I mean i got to hang out with some friends that I wish would like each other. And I got to talk to my Matty. Well thats always fun cause hes my Matty. But today was different, all I could think about was his gf Crystal. She is the nasty bitch who incase you haven't caught on that I don't like. And all that I could think about was "What does she have, what does she do, what does she do to make him love her like he does" I mean he loves me to but for some reason he just won't let her go. So now I wonder am I good enough, am I pretty enough, am I loyal enough, and basicly, am I really the type of person that he wants to be with. I mean he tells me that he loves me and that he wants to be with me, but all of a sudden its just not good enough. And I know that everyone has been there when at that very moment that you don't feel good enough. Your heart drops and you feel like the lowest person on the planet. You feel like no matter what you do, it won't be good enough for anyone. And its in these moments where all you want to do is crawl up into a corner and die. and thats how I feel. NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!!