I am a hard worker, damnit.
Drew is going to be here for dinner in 15 minutes. Not sure why I decided now was a good time to post. Here we go...
Week one of unemployment went ok. One interview, one job offer, wayy too much of a pay cut and a pass.
I am getting a bit concerned, I haven't found as many positions to apply to this time around. I am hoping this twinge of concern goes away. I really can only afford to live for a month without a job. I have to wait two weeks to find out about unemployment, but feel a bit skeptical about that too. I am not concerned about my reason for separation, but I am worried I didn't work there long enough and that since this is an "additional claim," they won't approve it. I really hope they do, I only received a month's worth of unemployment benefits last time.
The economy being the way it is currently makes me overcome with disillusionment. I was excited about my last position and company, had started planning financially and setting goals and now this. Erin and I have been discussing moving to Portland, but unless I get a really great job for the next 8 months or so, I don't see how we'll be able to afford to leave. Which, would suck in itself because I don't want to stay where we are. Simply because our landlord is stupid. Aside from the fact that thought we've been here over a year, I am sure if we sign a lease again, she'll raise the rent.
Ugh, so much turmoil, yet I have such a great gf. I think between Erin and friends things are good. When it comes to work or siblings it's a whole other issue, not awful, but not promising.
My brother has requested a medical waiver to get back into the military, this time the Army National Guard. I would rather him get some schooling and be a police officer or something. I know how stupid he is and that he's probably just going to get killed. That sounds ridiculous, but it is an easy way out of a family and life in general. I don't know if he really wants to go because he thinks he'll be good or because it is a way out. Out of his family or life, I am not sure. Since they racked up thousands and thousands of dollars and have lived with my parents for the last year, all I can do is resent them. Christina mostly, J not quite as much. And the poor kids. They are having a great time with Gammy and Gampy, but I fear they aren't going to have the wholesome, well-rounded life we had. I don't think my brother is father material and I definitely don't think Christina is a good mother. Awful to say, but since I've kept it in, it's time to say it. What does my brother hope to accomplish by going into the military? How will that resolve his debt? Why does he think being away from his kids with an idiot for a wife is acceptable? How could it possibly better their situation, the pay can't be that good. I think he wants to get away from them and that he thinks it is a career opportunity. If it really came down to career, without all the other variables, I think I would be more supportive. I just really think it is a pathetic way to cope with a horrible situation. I don't know if he and Christina are happy, but I can't imagine letting someone spend all my money and get loans and still want to be with them. I guess he and I are due for a more in depth convo. I avoid it because I can't rile him up, it isn't fair to my parents. He did call last weekend wanting to tell me about it...all macho and like it was some outstanding thing. They are taking EVERYONE, dumb-ass. I wish he wasn't such a pathological liar, it only makes us talking that more frustrating. I don't even know how to begin with him. But I know that until something happens where he and the fam are out of mom and dad's I need to keep my opinions to the min.
Then there is the MAJOR issue of my sister being pregnant. She's known the guy for a few years supposedly, his name is Marcus. First thought I had was that he is black. He's not. Second thought, "does he live at home?" Nope. Whew. BUT, just out a relationship and Kate was the rebound. No safe sex = pregnant. At 24. Decent job with AT&T, but still living at home with the parents and all of the other family. Any hopes of moving out? Yes, before this debacle. When she first told him she was pregnant, he was upset. He went to the first dr. appt with her. He told her he'd pay child support, but didn't want to be the "dad."
More later, dinner time.
Week one of unemployment went ok. One interview, one job offer, wayy too much of a pay cut and a pass.
I am getting a bit concerned, I haven't found as many positions to apply to this time around. I am hoping this twinge of concern goes away. I really can only afford to live for a month without a job. I have to wait two weeks to find out about unemployment, but feel a bit skeptical about that too. I am not concerned about my reason for separation, but I am worried I didn't work there long enough and that since this is an "additional claim," they won't approve it. I really hope they do, I only received a month's worth of unemployment benefits last time.
The economy being the way it is currently makes me overcome with disillusionment. I was excited about my last position and company, had started planning financially and setting goals and now this. Erin and I have been discussing moving to Portland, but unless I get a really great job for the next 8 months or so, I don't see how we'll be able to afford to leave. Which, would suck in itself because I don't want to stay where we are. Simply because our landlord is stupid. Aside from the fact that thought we've been here over a year, I am sure if we sign a lease again, she'll raise the rent.
Ugh, so much turmoil, yet I have such a great gf. I think between Erin and friends things are good. When it comes to work or siblings it's a whole other issue, not awful, but not promising.
My brother has requested a medical waiver to get back into the military, this time the Army National Guard. I would rather him get some schooling and be a police officer or something. I know how stupid he is and that he's probably just going to get killed. That sounds ridiculous, but it is an easy way out of a family and life in general. I don't know if he really wants to go because he thinks he'll be good or because it is a way out. Out of his family or life, I am not sure. Since they racked up thousands and thousands of dollars and have lived with my parents for the last year, all I can do is resent them. Christina mostly, J not quite as much. And the poor kids. They are having a great time with Gammy and Gampy, but I fear they aren't going to have the wholesome, well-rounded life we had. I don't think my brother is father material and I definitely don't think Christina is a good mother. Awful to say, but since I've kept it in, it's time to say it. What does my brother hope to accomplish by going into the military? How will that resolve his debt? Why does he think being away from his kids with an idiot for a wife is acceptable? How could it possibly better their situation, the pay can't be that good. I think he wants to get away from them and that he thinks it is a career opportunity. If it really came down to career, without all the other variables, I think I would be more supportive. I just really think it is a pathetic way to cope with a horrible situation. I don't know if he and Christina are happy, but I can't imagine letting someone spend all my money and get loans and still want to be with them. I guess he and I are due for a more in depth convo. I avoid it because I can't rile him up, it isn't fair to my parents. He did call last weekend wanting to tell me about it...all macho and like it was some outstanding thing. They are taking EVERYONE, dumb-ass. I wish he wasn't such a pathological liar, it only makes us talking that more frustrating. I don't even know how to begin with him. But I know that until something happens where he and the fam are out of mom and dad's I need to keep my opinions to the min.
Then there is the MAJOR issue of my sister being pregnant. She's known the guy for a few years supposedly, his name is Marcus. First thought I had was that he is black. He's not. Second thought, "does he live at home?" Nope. Whew. BUT, just out a relationship and Kate was the rebound. No safe sex = pregnant. At 24. Decent job with AT&T, but still living at home with the parents and all of the other family. Any hopes of moving out? Yes, before this debacle. When she first told him she was pregnant, he was upset. He went to the first dr. appt with her. He told her he'd pay child support, but didn't want to be the "dad."
More later, dinner time.