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I practiced yoga today. I'm happy. I had chopsuey for dinner and a leche flan. But I'm still happy because I attended my yoga class. Sometimes, I think I do yoga just so I can eat. Nah, I do yoga because it makes everything seem less important. I don't obsess about what I eat, not as much anyway. And it makes me feel good about myself. Yes, it is working. Bikram knows what he is saying after all. I told my boyfriend that I will never live in a place where there is no bikram yoga center. It just changed my life for the better. I'm more confident, less conscious of myself, and most importantly, less aware of what everybody else thinks. I just do my work, practice my yoga, talk to my boyfriend, and I write in this journal. Life can't get any better. There's is still a room for improvement of course when it comes to caring what other people think or say. It has always been a struggle and a form of distraction for me. But with yoga, I learned to focus, to have an open mind and a sense of humor. Sometimes we get stuck in the present, we forget that the things we worry won't really matter in the greater scheme of things. That's yoga for me. Know yoga, know peace. I just want to be focused on things that matter like my work, my boyfriend, my family and my clothing. Those are the things that fills my life. It makes life worth living, the things that make me happy. And I'm working on that positive attitude deal. The Secret. Laws of Attraction. The whole deal.
I messed up at work today but I have to move on. It is, after all, part of the learning experience. We have to make mistakes. Of course I didn't say anything to the partner. And I will deny anything and everything when he finds out. I just hope he doesn't find out because I don't want to go through the lying and denial. It is just tedious. Then again, being a lawyer does not only mean in depth knowledge of the law. To a certain extent, one needs acting skills and an unfazed demeanor that will belie the obvious. In any case, I hoping against hope that the partner and the client won't find out. Please God. It bothered me a lot a while ago. But my boyfriend told me to forget about it because it is just part of the experience. We messed up sometimes. And it is done. There's nothing I can do about it but pray and move on with the lesson that from now on, I will have to watch everytime that comes out of my mouth because that's just the way it is. Yes, hello ms. positive attitude!
On a different note, our firm is factious. Not the partners because really, all they care about is that the clients pay. But the other associates. I hate it when they whisper to each other while the others (me included) just look at them, or pretend to look somewhere else. It is rude. I mean, I consider it rude when Chinese people talk in their "ni hao" language around non-speakers. How much more when people whisper in front of you? Oh well, it is just rude. That's just my point. Stop whispering. If the topic is not meant to be heard by other people, then I'm sorry, but that will just have to wait. Say it when nobody else is there.
Ah, I have a new assignment at work. Design application for this particular shoe. I'm so excited. I haven't done anything like that before. And I can't wait to learn something new. And it's a shoe! How perfect is that!