me blabing...

Sep 04, 2004 20:24

I love sad movies. They always seem to belittle all my problems, and make everything in my life seem like a slice of pie (with whip cream). They also give me an excuse to cry, and help me vent... But the thing about the movie is that it's just a facet of our imagination, portrayed on to a screen. We can hope and pray and dream that it be true, but no matter how hard we try, it never will be. Movies are my escape, not my life, and I wouldn't my life to be one. I still am figuring out my life.

I really have some awesome friends, like Sami, I have never actually met her, but she always knows just what to say. I guess that we're all at that crucial point in our lives where we are still finding ourselves, and realizing out true potential to be great. We're all on a path to self awareness, self respect, self love, and self contentment. I know that I'm. I'm going to have ups and downs, but I know that with you guys sticking by me. I think that I'll make it through.

Life. It's a funny thing. It's like a road, with millions upon millions of detours. And we have to try to stay on the right path, as for me, and probably many others, I'm still finding the right path for me, forget staying on it. I've taken my share of detours, and shortcuts. We all have. Life. Something that we all have, mine usually sucks, but then I look at my cousin with MS, and I thank god that I have the life that I have. She is 23, and right now, she has no life.

I have my share of problems, and I need to vent. I share them on here; I'm not good with confrontation, so a lot of the stuff that I say symbolizes other problems. I'm the same way. I always wear a mask. No one sees me. And I've gotten so good at it that most people tend to not realize that it's not me. I hate being a phony, but I want to battle my own demons, for now anyways.

I want to be able to handle myself. I want to learn how to take care of myself. On my road of life, I'm riding a unicycle, I fall down a lot, but I get right up again. Perseverance. I have a lot of that for the stuff that I really care about. But the funny thing about unicycles is UNI one, me. And until I can get a car, or a bicycle built for two, I'm going to keep on trying on my unicycle... Who knows I may actually get somewhere.

p.s. But don't stop commenting, I love to hear all of your advices, and I value your opinion, even if I don't always agree with them. So still comment.
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