just another uneventful day in the life of me....
so today i took the weather stripping off the windows and the patio door. for some reason it put me in such a good mood just to open the patio door and walk out there. its just nice to see that winter is really comming to an end. i cant wait for spring. me and justin need to have more picnics on our patio! yeah we are dorks... but yeah anyways i talked to my mom today and its just getting to the point where i dont even wanna try anymore. i havent seen my mom since nov. and i tried during xmas to get her to make a date to come out and see me and it never happened? now it is march and almost my birthday and i still cant even guilt her into it..haha like yesterday i called her to see if maybe she wanted to hang out this sunday...and she was like well i think i have to do something but i cant remember....what? what the hell is that? yeah so i dont even know if she will make a trip out here ever again. but whatever i guess. im getting used to not having a family anyways. but lately it just seems like everyone is in a funk. i dont know? it seems like everyone is mad at me? i know i always think people are mad at me but really this time i think its real? so i dont know what to do. im not good at this kinda thing. the whole telling people how i feel and stuff? im not sure if me and justin should really even get into our st.patricks day party cuz for all i know no one will show up. and then after that is my birthday. i just dont know if i have the energy for this. cuz usually my birthday always sucks. cuz im like a little kid and i get all excited and then when nothing that great happens i just feel let down? i dont really know why i still update this thing. livejournal is dead...but sometimes it just nice to write down what your thinking? so yeah there is my update for the month. now i need to go clean this nasty turtle tank...fun times!
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